comanche

Hi everyone, hope you all are gearing up for a good holiday weekend. Just checking in. I went out last night with some old drinking buddies. We have been friends for years and I really love these guys, there's nothing like the friends one has had since childhood I think. While they don't really pressure me to drink with them, I don't think they really believe that I have a drinking problem, probably because I haven't been completely honest with them about how low alcohol made me in the last few years.

Part of me still wants to hold on to the idea that I can go back to drinking some day, once my life has stabilized. However last night when I was out in a bar scene, sipping my diet coke, I looked around at all the people drinking and it just didn't seem that appealing at all. If one can feel good without having to put alcohol, why put that unhealthy substance in your body? To fit in? I'm tired of trying to do what everyone else does to fit in. I can start being different and taking care of myself a little bit; a lot of my binge drinking was to drown out feelings of low self-esteem.

Anyway, day 68, feeling good, apologies for the mildly incoherent post, take care

Mida

Not incoherent at all...kudos on 68 days!

zeldachan

you are an example for the rest of us! keep on doing well

Anna

Yes, I do think that our perspective changes as we continue the recovery journey. Like you, I began to see things in a different way. Good for you with 68 days sober!

least

Congrats on your sober time, and many more days to come.

Dee74

I no longer find that life fun either.

I try to meet my mates elsewhere and avoid bars - not through fear...bars just aren't me anymore. I'm a non drinker

Congratulations on your 68 days, comanche

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