aasharon90

I always failed when I said I would do something
and then didn't follow thru as anticipated. I felt
like I let myself down so many times with feelings
of guilt and shame.

In recovery I learned to not set myself up with promises
because of that and instead followed suggestions by those
who stayed sober years before me. Just For Today.

If I minimize my actions to a smaller time frame then I
feel like that is easier for me to follow them. For me to
think I could never drink again would be so overwhelming
to me that when I did drink after I said I wouldnt then I felt
like a loser. I let myself down. And oh how many times
did I let myself down. Too Many to count or remember.

So JFT Just For Today I can handle not drinking. All I
have to do is continue to do the next best thing by either
going to a meeting, saying my memorized Serenity Prayer
over and over till the urge passed, call a sponsor or someone
that would support me and guide me to doing the right thing
and not drink, exercise, enjoy a place that is serene like a
park sitting on a bench looking out over a lake, trees, birds.

Ride your bycycle, motorcycle, walk drive. Quietness away
from the hecticness or noise in my head. Music, tranquil,
peaceful.

For 20 yrs, I continue to stay in today. Not yesterdays stuff because I cant do anything with it cause its gone and will never come back again. Tomorrow, next week. Will it come? I dont know but I hope so, cause like today it is awesome. To reach
for tomorrow sober or clean is to do what I did today to stay sober and thats to follow all suggestions and more that I wrote about above.

It can and has for me since 8-11-90. Some 20 yrs ago as I
continue on my recovery path Just For Today.

Ranger

Thanks for the wisdom, Sharon. Much appreciated!