almost two years
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: phila pa
Posts: 1
almost two years
i wrote this poem the night i coined out of my rehab, i thought instead of telling my story i was better at poetry
It started real simple, it started real slow, the havoc it would wreak, I would not know
I did it on weekends, which spilled into the week; this simple powder would turn my life bleak
But maybe it wouldn’t, maybe I’d shine, its’ amazing how this powder made me feel so divine
At last I had stopped, I would do it no more, I was done it forever and to that I swore
It was fate that day, that she stepped off that train, God put sun in my skies, God took away the rain,
I said hi my names Pat, she said hi my names Jessica, it was love at first sight I truly confess to ya,
I worked overtime on that warm fateful night, I shouldn’t be here I thought, I thought something’s not right
I climbed up the stairs, turned the key in that lock, heard a pop, looked down, and said damn I been shot
They took me to trauma, they got me there fast, I pondered my future recollected my past,
I couldn’t believe it, is this just a dream, then it entered my veins, that drip of morphine
That script that he wrote, you know for the oxy, made me feel so alive, so good, and so foxy
After all that hard work, I couldn’t believe again I was addicted
But now it was worse, because now Jess was afflicted
We said it each night, it’s our very last time, we need to live right, were living our prime
She went to Florida, and I stayed up here, I was living right again, or so it appeared
But then I really needed her, my grandfather died, I’m flying up tonight she said, to be right by your side
She held me and hugged me and made me feel good, strong as Stonehenge was she, and by my side she stood
She was going to fly back in the evening on Sunday, but so she could see her mother I changed it to Monday
Again it was on a warm summer night, July 3rd of 05, that again something wasn’t right
I got that fateful call, the very next day, guess what happened to Jessica, her mother would say
It was relapse I thought up in my head, no she said, no, no Jess has been found dead
I was crying and angry, so angry at God, he chewed up my world, spit it out in a wad
I went on a mission, to find me that guy, who gave her the drugs that took the sun out my sky
I waited outside his house, with revenge in my head, a gun in my lap; I wanted to fill him with lead
Now here is the secret, that only four people know, INSIDE JESSICA WAS A BABY……
THAT I WILL NEVER SEE GROW
I WANTED TO TELL HIM THE LIFE YOU TOOK, IT WASN’T JUST ONE
YOU TOOK WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN MY DAUGHTER, WHAT COULD’VE BEEN MY SON
Eventually my anger would have subsided; it was god I asked for help, it was he who provided
Again he brought out the sun; again he took away the showers,
JESS AGAIN I’M WHOLE AND BRINGING YOU THIS ROCK, INSTEAD OF THOSE FLOWERS
So I’m keeping alive your memory, releasing the pain, remembering the day, I saw you step off that train
So as I finish this up, and look at the clock,
THANK YOU COMMUNITY FOR BEING MY ROCK
It started real simple, it started real slow, the havoc it would wreak, I would not know
I did it on weekends, which spilled into the week; this simple powder would turn my life bleak
But maybe it wouldn’t, maybe I’d shine, its’ amazing how this powder made me feel so divine
At last I had stopped, I would do it no more, I was done it forever and to that I swore
It was fate that day, that she stepped off that train, God put sun in my skies, God took away the rain,
I said hi my names Pat, she said hi my names Jessica, it was love at first sight I truly confess to ya,
I worked overtime on that warm fateful night, I shouldn’t be here I thought, I thought something’s not right
I climbed up the stairs, turned the key in that lock, heard a pop, looked down, and said damn I been shot
They took me to trauma, they got me there fast, I pondered my future recollected my past,
I couldn’t believe it, is this just a dream, then it entered my veins, that drip of morphine
That script that he wrote, you know for the oxy, made me feel so alive, so good, and so foxy
After all that hard work, I couldn’t believe again I was addicted
But now it was worse, because now Jess was afflicted
We said it each night, it’s our very last time, we need to live right, were living our prime
She went to Florida, and I stayed up here, I was living right again, or so it appeared
But then I really needed her, my grandfather died, I’m flying up tonight she said, to be right by your side
She held me and hugged me and made me feel good, strong as Stonehenge was she, and by my side she stood
She was going to fly back in the evening on Sunday, but so she could see her mother I changed it to Monday
Again it was on a warm summer night, July 3rd of 05, that again something wasn’t right
I got that fateful call, the very next day, guess what happened to Jessica, her mother would say
It was relapse I thought up in my head, no she said, no, no Jess has been found dead
I was crying and angry, so angry at God, he chewed up my world, spit it out in a wad
I went on a mission, to find me that guy, who gave her the drugs that took the sun out my sky
I waited outside his house, with revenge in my head, a gun in my lap; I wanted to fill him with lead
Now here is the secret, that only four people know, INSIDE JESSICA WAS A BABY……
THAT I WILL NEVER SEE GROW
I WANTED TO TELL HIM THE LIFE YOU TOOK, IT WASN’T JUST ONE
YOU TOOK WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN MY DAUGHTER, WHAT COULD’VE BEEN MY SON
Eventually my anger would have subsided; it was god I asked for help, it was he who provided
Again he brought out the sun; again he took away the showers,
JESS AGAIN I’M WHOLE AND BRINGING YOU THIS ROCK, INSTEAD OF THOSE FLOWERS
So I’m keeping alive your memory, releasing the pain, remembering the day, I saw you step off that train
So as I finish this up, and look at the clock,
THANK YOU COMMUNITY FOR BEING MY ROCK
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
