I fell off the boat and need support
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Join Date: Jul 2010
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I fell off the boat and need support
First off, to everyone whom I spoke with q while back, I apologize. And to one person in particular , I disrespected you and I am terribly sorry for that. I've been hammere long enough, I need yo stop! So today is day one..... Ugh..... again.
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Welcome back Mr Serious
It took me years to work out I needed to do something more than what I'd been doing.
I guess the $64 question is what are you going to do different this time? What are you going to try you haven't tried before?
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It took me years to work out I needed to do something more than what I'd been doing.
I guess the $64 question is what are you going to do different this time? What are you going to try you haven't tried before?
D
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Glad you made it back Mr Serious,
I struggled with maintaining my sobriety for years. I could admit I was an alcoholic for most of my drinking career, but couldn't fully accept it for a long time. I put down the drink and the drug over and over only to pick it back up a month or sometimes as long as a year later. I had to hit a point of complete surrender to be honest enough with myself about the severity of my condition and to have the willingness to truly work a program of recovery. Time and time again I threw in the towel only to pick it back up piece by piece.
I struggled with maintaining my sobriety for years. I could admit I was an alcoholic for most of my drinking career, but couldn't fully accept it for a long time. I put down the drink and the drug over and over only to pick it back up a month or sometimes as long as a year later. I had to hit a point of complete surrender to be honest enough with myself about the severity of my condition and to have the willingness to truly work a program of recovery. Time and time again I threw in the towel only to pick it back up piece by piece.
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Welcome back!!
Glad you're starting over again. I'm just coming up on a year sober after deciding to quit three years ago. I wasted most of two years trying to moderate and making excuses for my drinking. Glad that's done. I'm so happy with my sober life and I wish the same sober happiness for you.
Glad you're starting over again. I'm just coming up on a year sober after deciding to quit three years ago. I wasted most of two years trying to moderate and making excuses for my drinking. Glad that's done. I'm so happy with my sober life and I wish the same sober happiness for you. 
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Hi MrSerious, right with you today. I seriously fell of the wagon last week myself. Apologies to the Class of November gang for not supporting you.
After several weeks sober and trudging through the winter cold and rain I just walked in to a bar, almost automatically like some sort of robot. There was no emotion (happy, relief, otherwise) at the time. The rest is just a blur.
My problem is that although I know I'm an alcoholic and cannot drink in moderation, I simply don't seem to believe it on whatever deep spiritual level it's going to take.
Still, I made it to another (powerful) AA meeting and have just spent a sleepless night reading 'Under the influence' cover to cover. Beating myself up won't help and something's got to stick eventually.
Good luck, Forwards.
After several weeks sober and trudging through the winter cold and rain I just walked in to a bar, almost automatically like some sort of robot. There was no emotion (happy, relief, otherwise) at the time. The rest is just a blur.
My problem is that although I know I'm an alcoholic and cannot drink in moderation, I simply don't seem to believe it on whatever deep spiritual level it's going to take.
Still, I made it to another (powerful) AA meeting and have just spent a sleepless night reading 'Under the influence' cover to cover. Beating myself up won't help and something's got to stick eventually.
Good luck, Forwards.
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Originally Posted by Forwards 
I just walked in to a bar, almost automatically like some sort of robot. There was no emotion (happy, relief, otherwise) at the time. The rest is just a blur.
My problem is that although I know I'm an alcoholic and cannot drink in moderation, I simply don't seem to believe it on whatever deep spiritual level it's going to take.
Good luck, Forwards.
My problem is that although I know I'm an alcoholic and cannot drink in moderation, I simply don't seem to believe it on whatever deep spiritual level it's going to take.
Good luck, Forwards.
Will power alone, for me, won't help. I have some, but not enough. I found a great NA meeting near me, this bunch doesn't pull any punches. They will be there on the phone at 3am if I need them. I can't say enough about these folks.
Find a local group, AA or NA, and get to it. Work on the steps. It's not going to be easy, but, it's your life, and any life is worth living to it's fullest.
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