Aysha

I am going to the house today. Gotta be there at 1pm.
I am having 2nd thoughts and getting cold feet. But I am going.
At least I know a couple people there still. My roommate is someone that was there before. She came back too and she was my buddy the 1st time. My buddy is someone who I went to IOP with for awhile and took my spot when I left.
I will be on lock down for 21 days. SIGH>
My buddy is an AAer....so I will be going to AA for the time being. But I already know where all the NA meetings are, so when I do get off assessment, I will be all set. It should be a little easier getting settled this time since I know what to do already.

I have to stop thinking 6 mos. Thats all that is going through my mind is 6 mos...6 mos...One day at a time is where I need to be.

I have to finish this this time.

My oldest little cousin cried when he was leaving yesterday. It broke my heart. He is going to miss me. And even tho I hate to see him cry and it sux thta I have to go through this again because I am an idiot.

I am very grateful that he loves me and will miss me. Kids dont lie and it is an absolute priveledge to have a child's love.

I didnt expect him to cry tho. That surprised me. But it just reinforced why I needd to go and stay this time.

Anyway. I will check in when I can guys. I will miss you all. :ghug3

hearnerules

Good luck! Time will fly by and think of all the good that will come of this. In my prayers.

IO Storm

Hugs and prayers, Aysha)))))))

least

Take good care of yourself. You will be missed.

Anna

Trish, I'm glad you're doing this.

And, remember that recovery is not something you finish. It's a way of life, and you're learning more and more every day.

CarolD

Glad to know you are taking a positive forward action

inbloom

I wish you peace and wellness. Take good care.

Opivotal

Aysha,

You are doing what you need to do to make yourself well. I respect you for that,and will keep you in my prayers. Take good care. :ghug3

julez

Good luck, and warm wishes to you.

Dee74

I'll miss you here Trish, but this is a good thing.
Take care

D

jackc

Hang in there! The "house" isn't so bad once you buy in!