TwelveSteps

So, I'm working on day 5 after my relapse last week. At my work, packages are delivered to a central location and the recipients come and get them. For the past two days, TWO cases of wine that someone ordered have been sitting there. I have to walk past them every time I go to the bathroom.

Wine was my drink of choice so it grates on me every time I walk by!

Nothing to be done, just wanted to vent/complain to folks who would understand.

GG

DayTrader

Geez, I don't know what to say. It's day 5 so I'll be sympathetic but.... get your butt moving in some program of recovery. You'll be exposed to beer, wine, booze, drugs, etc for the rest of your life.

If you're harboring resentments against something you don't even want to like anymore (wine), personal relationship-based resentments will be a real killer down the road.

White-knuckling it not only feel crappy, it doesn't work all that well.

I wish you the best and hope you find your way.

Taking5

This is SO true. We have to acknowledge this and still stay sober.

DayTrader

Lol.... on a side-note.

Went to one of my home-groups Tuesday. Meeting is in a hall at a church. Went into the kitchen to make some coffee..... big ol' keg of beer, freshly tapped, in the fridge (which had glass doors) and a stack of chilled glasses stacked up next to it. It was right next to the coffee equipment.

For a fraction of a second I thought "it'd be cool to have a pitcher of beer while sitting at the tables.....sure sounds better than coffee."

.....Then it hit me where I was, who I was, why I was there....and how I'm still insane. Gave me a good laugh at myself, that's for sure.

TwelveSteps

Oh, totally agree. I am in AA, actually. And I recognize that my alcoholism doesn't affect others' right to drink and enjoy wine normally. Like I said, I was just venting about it.

GG

least

It used to bother me just going past the wine and beer aisle at the grocery store but now it doesn't phase me at all. I just think to myself "I don't drink anymore!" and keep on going. That wine sitting there might be a trigger to you... but you don't have to pull that trigger, do you?

DayTrader

Cool.... I said what I said cuz I care.

Keep it up. Those first several weeks are tough, scary, full of emotions, feelings of disconnectedness followed by extreme connectedness..... it can be a roller coaster. If it feels that way, you're on your way. It's part of the path to sobriety.

Mike

intention

That's great, GG. I do hope that you get with your sponsor and work through the steps quite quickly.


When you have a spiritual awakening as a result of the steps you will find that you no longer see the alcohol. "The problem is removed."

Well done on your 5 days.