Not So New, Again
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Not So New, Again
Hi all,
This is my XX attempt at trying to stop drinking. I'm not sure exactly how many times it's been. I've been on SR in the past as well and left when I went back to drinking. I'm hoping this is the final time. I have a better plan in place and a deeper felt motivation to stop. I'm 46 and a stay at home mom to 2 kids (8 & 4).
I'm looking forward to new opportunities that await me in my sober life and at the same time fear and mourn my perceived loss of my drinking life. Does that make sense?
txsar
This is my XX attempt at trying to stop drinking. I'm not sure exactly how many times it's been. I've been on SR in the past as well and left when I went back to drinking. I'm hoping this is the final time. I have a better plan in place and a deeper felt motivation to stop. I'm 46 and a stay at home mom to 2 kids (8 & 4).
I'm looking forward to new opportunities that await me in my sober life and at the same time fear and mourn my perceived loss of my drinking life. Does that make sense?
txsar
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Welcome back Txsar 
Yeah it makes perfect sense to me: a friend of mine posted this elsewhere this morning - something to keep in mind, maybe?
have faith Txsar
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Yeah it makes perfect sense to me: a friend of mine posted this elsewhere this morning - something to keep in mind, maybe?
When you come to the end of all the light you know, and you are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing that one of two thing will happen: there will be something solid to stand on, or you will be taught to fly.
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Yes that makes sense. You are making a big change and all changes are a challenge. I too wondered what I'd do when sober when I needed to relax or chill. But after too many relapses, and going thru withdrawal over and over, I realized that alcohol was nothing but poison to me and would kill me, but not before making me very sick. I do'nt want to be very sick before I die so best I stay sober.
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Hello Tsxar,
Im a single mum to a 5 yr old, it took me countless attempts to stop drinking until I shamed myself into stopping but this time it forced me into AA, thank God, coz I could not stay stopped anlone. I manage to get to 3 meetings a week while my son is at school as I cant get out in the evenings (no bbysitters). I need help and guidance, I need a programme of recovery, something set in stone, it has been my bridge to a 'normal' life. My son has a proper mum now, not me on auto pilot anymore. When I weigh up the pros and cons of my drinking verses my sobriety guess which one wins hands down? I can honestly say, after a year of sobriety, I love my sober life now, thats coming from the girl who loved to party! I wish you all the very best honey.
Im a single mum to a 5 yr old, it took me countless attempts to stop drinking until I shamed myself into stopping but this time it forced me into AA, thank God, coz I could not stay stopped anlone. I manage to get to 3 meetings a week while my son is at school as I cant get out in the evenings (no bbysitters). I need help and guidance, I need a programme of recovery, something set in stone, it has been my bridge to a 'normal' life. My son has a proper mum now, not me on auto pilot anymore. When I weigh up the pros and cons of my drinking verses my sobriety guess which one wins hands down? I can honestly say, after a year of sobriety, I love my sober life now, thats coming from the girl who loved to party! I wish you all the very best honey.
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Thank you all for your Welcomes. It feels good to be back. I'm on day 4 now. So far it hasn't been too bad. I've had a head cold his week so haven't really felt like drinking. As I start to feel better I'm sure those desires and cravings will come back.
joderis, thinking back on my post about a "better plan in place", I guess it's not really a better plan it's more of a commitment to follow through with the plan. My plan was in the past and is currently to seek help (AA) when I thought I needed it. I didn't follow through with that plan in the past. This time I will. There is an AA meeting that meets tomorrow morning that I want to go to. I'm trying to get up the courage this morning to call about it. It's at a church and I don't want to be wandering around asking where the AA meeing is.
dignityback, congrats on your 1 year sober! That's awesome. It really scares me to think that far out. I think that's part of what has gotten in the way of me stopping before.
Dee74, thanks for the quote. That is so true. Having faith is what's going to get me through this.
Have a good day everyone!
joderis, thinking back on my post about a "better plan in place", I guess it's not really a better plan it's more of a commitment to follow through with the plan. My plan was in the past and is currently to seek help (AA) when I thought I needed it. I didn't follow through with that plan in the past. This time I will. There is an AA meeting that meets tomorrow morning that I want to go to. I'm trying to get up the courage this morning to call about it. It's at a church and I don't want to be wandering around asking where the AA meeing is.
dignityback, congrats on your 1 year sober! That's awesome. It really scares me to think that far out. I think that's part of what has gotten in the way of me stopping before.
Dee74, thanks for the quote. That is so true. Having faith is what's going to get me through this.
Have a good day everyone!
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Go 15 minutes early and you won't have to wander, you can just follow people in.
I didn't quit until the morning my 21 year old daughter had to tell me a story about what I had done in alcohol induced black out the night before. Up until that moment, I would have told you that my drinking hadn't hurt anyone, and that I was a good mom.
My last drunk I did horrible things, and my child was there. She is 22 now, and was raised by a mom who used booze to cope with everything. I am glad you are committed to quitting now, so your children will know a healthier way of living.
I didn't quit until the morning my 21 year old daughter had to tell me a story about what I had done in alcohol induced black out the night before. Up until that moment, I would have told you that my drinking hadn't hurt anyone, and that I was a good mom.
My last drunk I did horrible things, and my child was there. She is 22 now, and was raised by a mom who used booze to cope with everything. I am glad you are committed to quitting now, so your children will know a healthier way of living.
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