sadlion

I know the worst side of alcoholism. I am NOT trying to impress anyone (how sad that would be), but I must point out that I have absolutely NO excuse for underestimating the damage of alcoholism ( having experienced alcohol induced murder and suicide in my own family, nevermind the other consequences (jail etc.)). The strangest thing about alcholism is the dead sensation you experience when you know when you should be disabled with despair, yet you have numbed your mind to the point of indifference.

Ah, well. This post really was not meant to have replies. I just need to have like minded souls read my thoughts.

God save us all if he can,
Ryan

Dee74

I've heard it said God can move mountains, Ryan - but He gives us the shovel.
No-ones position is hopeless.

Are you still going to AA?
D

sadlion

Unfortunately, no. I am not still going to AA. I should be, and I have no excuse for not going, hence my post.
-edit - Oh, and I am going tomorrow. God, please let me still be sober and still attending AA next week.

-Ryan

Dee74

You have my support Ryan. I'm glad you've decided to go back.
Good luck to you, man

D

yeahgr8

Good luck Ryan

For me God wants me to forgive myself, he forgave me the first time i asked for his forgiveness:-)

Cliff

vegibean

Ryan, I know!!!! If you are willing to face it like a warrior you'll win the fight. I used alcohol to cover up so much pain, hurt and anger and when it was gone........WHEW!!!!!!!

When drinking I thought I was so strong, nothing seemed to phase me.

Once I've gotten through all the rough stuff, I've found that even when I have more crap to deal with today, I can still do it and not let the bad things affect me. I have to fight for me everyday.

Not trying to scare you, I just happen to be going through a lot of crap with my X husband. When we were married I drank away all that misery I felt when I was with him. I'm grateful not to be married to him any more, SO GRATEFUL!!!! Because no doubt, if I was still with him I think I would be drunk today as well.

I'm loving being divorced, sober and not having to live with his abuse everyday any more. YAY!!!!! And I don't need a drink everyday to get through all that pain. YES!!!!!!!!! While he still does a good job at getting me riled up, I'm not living with it. It's much better.



There is hope..........

FightingIrish

I'm going to the 7:30 A.M. meeting a couple blocks over. A nice bunch of people who get up way too early. :-) I know if a desperate drunk showed up in need of help you would be helping a bunch of people who might need to be of service today to stay sober.

Believe808

God never gives up on us no matter what. Glad you are going back to AA Ryan.

Charmie

ryan,im sorry for your plight.things can get better and im glad that you are going to AA.it saved my life.keep us posted.

tommyk

"God, please let me still be sober and still attending AA next week."

He will do His part... please be sure to do your part.

Anna

Ryan, it's good to see you back.

I'm glad you're working hard on your recovery.