four812

i've had some tough moments during the last week, including today, but staying clean and sober.

i've been feeling urges to drink, but not doing it.

today i woke up wanting to go back to sleep and hide, and filled with anger and feeling defeated. but my daughter spent the night and that helped me to at least MOVE (ie made her breakfast, went swimming with her)

right now is where i need to put all my attention. and staying in today is the affirmation that i need to keep repeating in order to focus on the now. I prayed before i got out of my bed. I haven't been a perfect recovery action person, but i'm doing some things right thank god

anyway i'm noticing how much i want to keep kicking my own ass. how mean i think towards myself. I need to keep paying attention to this AND i need to change this kind of thinking.

so i just wanted to tell the sr world what's going on and that i'm trying and that it's been very difficult sometimes, and that i have good plans for tonight.

Astro

Living in the now, the moment, staying in today, those are all great places to be. Thanks for sharing your progress.

Hey I've been swimming with my kids too, and I've always loved cooking meals for them. It's good to have a second chance to be the parent that every child deserves to have.

Anna

Ksplash,

I think we are often so hard on ourselves.

Be kind to yourself and congratulate yourself for what you accomplished today. Going swimming with your daughter is great!

Dee74

I often find I have to stop..breath..and accent-u-ate the positive too Ksplash

Keep it going

D

four812

thanks....for the quick responses!

i'm off to a meeting