Will I ever learn?
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Join Date: Sep 2008
Location: S East, Pa
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Will I ever learn?
Hi,
I've been lurking here for the better part of today. I been to the site a couple of times before, mostly after a binge, promising myself I was going to sober up. Here I sit once again with a headache, sour stomach after a few days of drinking. I used to go to meetings and was sober, or not drinking, for about three years before. I had gone to rehab and lived in sober living at the time. I moved in with a friend after his divorce and I think it was my intention to just leave the whole thing behind me. I loath the thought of getting back into meetings but i'm not sure I have a choice. I feel guilty for complaining about a headache and not being able to eat, after reading some of the other posts today. I am not looking forward to a sweaty night of tossing and turning. That is the worst. I may have to stay up and surf some more. Thanks to all for these forums and site.
I've been lurking here for the better part of today. I been to the site a couple of times before, mostly after a binge, promising myself I was going to sober up. Here I sit once again with a headache, sour stomach after a few days of drinking. I used to go to meetings and was sober, or not drinking, for about three years before. I had gone to rehab and lived in sober living at the time. I moved in with a friend after his divorce and I think it was my intention to just leave the whole thing behind me. I loath the thought of getting back into meetings but i'm not sure I have a choice. I feel guilty for complaining about a headache and not being able to eat, after reading some of the other posts today. I am not looking forward to a sweaty night of tossing and turning. That is the worst. I may have to stay up and surf some more. Thanks to all for these forums and site.
glad to have you. We understand what you are going through & are here for you.
Sober since 9th May 2008
Join Date: May 2008
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Welcome Kargy
Stick around and keep posting, things will get easier the longer you stay sober.
It won't feel like it right now, but how you are feeling won't last forever, I remember the sleepless nights, they like all the other uncomfortable symptoms calm down with time though.
A week from now you should feel so much better as long as you stick with it.
All the best.
Stick around and keep posting, things will get easier the longer you stay sober.
It won't feel like it right now, but how you are feeling won't last forever, I remember the sleepless nights, they like all the other uncomfortable symptoms calm down with time though.
A week from now you should feel so much better as long as you stick with it.
All the best.
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Join Date: Sep 2008
Location: Wisconsin
Posts: 248
Welcome Kargy! I know I have trouble learning the first time too. You would think after going through all the pain of quitting we would learn but many of us have been in your spot!
You can do it! Just stay by your computer and keep posting if you can't sleep. I notice many people are on in the wee hours.
You can do it! Just stay by your computer and keep posting if you can't sleep. I notice many people are on in the wee hours.
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Join Date: Jun 2009
Posts: 413
Originally Posted by rightonac 
I seem also never able to learn. Drank yesterday after not drinking for 3 months. It's a real pisser. My wife has had enough.
I'm going to continue to try though!
I'm going to continue to try though!
Dont throw your marraige away over this!
Hi Kargy, one tiny week without drink later and I do feel a lot more human and in a much safer place than I was this time last week.
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Location: Baton Rouge, La.
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I use to hear all the time that once uve
been exposed to recovery then it screws
up ur drinking or using.
Id sit in meetings listening to those that
were sober for a time, then went back
out to only return and tell me that alcohol
and drugs hasnt changed out there and that
its still kicking butts.
That was all i needed to hear time and
time again to not go back out there
myself and get my azz kicked.
Youve been exposed to recovery so
u have some knowledge about how to
stay sober. Thats better than most id
say.
This time however u can use the program
to ur advantage. You can now return to
those rooms and here and share ur experience
strength and hopes of what it was like before
during and after using or drinking.
Once u begin doing that then u will feel like
u have a purpose in life now.
I know for me i do have a purpose. See i
wasnt suppose to be here. I should have
died some 18 yrs ago but it wasnt my
time yet.
The Man upstairs wasnt thru with me yet.
He needed me to return to AA and help
the newcomers coming into recovery
and share my story with them to give
them hope.
Hope, that it is possible to live life happy
joyous and free without drugs and alcohol.
And im doing that by simply living the 12
steps provided to me thru the program
of Alcoholics Anonymous or NA.
Life wasnt over for me, it was just beginning.
So over the yrs, i have changed, grown,
enjoying life and having fun. In fact at
age 50, i have remarried after a 25 yr
marriage ended. Im learning to ride a motor-
cycle. Ive gotten 7 tattoes in 2yrs and
its not over yet.
So many members before me were recieving
the promises mentioned in the Big Book of AA
and they told me i would too.
Over the yrs i have been recieving them...for
some they recieved them quickly , others slowly
but they will materialize if u work for them.
They will too for u.
been exposed to recovery then it screws
up ur drinking or using.
Id sit in meetings listening to those that
were sober for a time, then went back
out to only return and tell me that alcohol
and drugs hasnt changed out there and that
its still kicking butts.
That was all i needed to hear time and
time again to not go back out there
myself and get my azz kicked.
Youve been exposed to recovery so
u have some knowledge about how to
stay sober. Thats better than most id
say.
This time however u can use the program
to ur advantage. You can now return to
those rooms and here and share ur experience
strength and hopes of what it was like before
during and after using or drinking.
Once u begin doing that then u will feel like
u have a purpose in life now.
I know for me i do have a purpose. See i
wasnt suppose to be here. I should have
died some 18 yrs ago but it wasnt my
time yet.
The Man upstairs wasnt thru with me yet.
He needed me to return to AA and help
the newcomers coming into recovery
and share my story with them to give
them hope.
Hope, that it is possible to live life happy
joyous and free without drugs and alcohol.
And im doing that by simply living the 12
steps provided to me thru the program
of Alcoholics Anonymous or NA.
Life wasnt over for me, it was just beginning.
So over the yrs, i have changed, grown,
enjoying life and having fun. In fact at
age 50, i have remarried after a 25 yr
marriage ended. Im learning to ride a motor-
cycle. Ive gotten 7 tattoes in 2yrs and
its not over yet.
So many members before me were recieving
the promises mentioned in the Big Book of AA
and they told me i would too.
Over the yrs i have been recieving them...for
some they recieved them quickly , others slowly
but they will materialize if u work for them.
They will too for u.
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Sep 2008
Location: S East, Pa
Posts: 41
Coming back for day two. Still sweating but I know this will go away. Last night was not as bad as it could have been. I need to recapture some of what I had three years ago. Only hopefully better... Gratitude, some sort of spirituality. I live with my friend and his family following a divorce. I am really concerned what their response to me going back to meetings. I know going to meetings is better than the alternative. One of the reasons I told myself a while back was that I was not going to meetings is I didn't want to explain to the kids where I was going. They should be going out tonight so I am planning to go to a meeting tonight. I know that is just stupid thinking.
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