LaDita

It seems, even on the best of days when I'm the most happiest or content, there is a dark cloud looming behind me and I feel as though something terrible is about to happen at any moment. And the happier I am or the better things are going, the worse it feels. Anyone else with me on this?

-LD

adore79

Yeah I can kinda relate. I dont feel like I am capable of feeling happiness to the extent that I used to, like when I was a kid or even a few years ago. When I am out of the house, I do get a feeling that doom is coming or something bad is going to happen. Ativan, and practicing mindfulness helps somewhat with this, so that it doesnt reach panic attack levels.

least

Me too. I so often feel like I'm waiting for the inevitable bad thing to happen. LIke I don't deserve to be happy or content. I have a lot of anxiety and worry and that doesn't make it easier to feel happy, always worried about 'stuff'.

adore79

Paranoia is also a big part of the anxiety I feel when I am in public. I have fears of people watching/following me, when I catch someones eye I have to fight off the thoughts that he/she was trying to tell me a message by looking at me. If someone talks to me, I am contantly distracted because I am trying to figure out why they are talking to me, and if they are trying to pass a subliminal message to me. It really sucks, and then I have to come home to hear my Mom tell me that I should be more social, arghhhh.

LaDita

I had this feeling alot today. I am getting pretty excited about starting a business and getting some other stuff done that I haven't been able to in awhile and something keeps nagging at me, telling me it's just bs or a day-dream, like the messages I got from my family for so long. Or maybe it's my intuition telling me to slow down and not jump the gun. I don't know what it is really.