baileyboop

I used to make the mistake of using the words self-esteem and self-confidence interchangably. Al-Anon has changed that for me. I have always had confidence in my abilities. After all, why would I knowingly take on an active alcoholic in my life if I didn't have the personal confidence that I could change him? (chuckle to myself)

What I was really lacking was self-esteem. I have always been kinda an overachiever....really competitive at times. In identifying some of my weaknesses, I've discovered that I was driven to do those things to increase my self-esteem..my self-worth. People would "see" me as good based on X, Y and Z that I accomplished. Only then, would I feel worthy. I was seeking validation externally....

So now, I am truly focusing on internal me.

Thanks for letting me share.

blessed4x

..........and thanks for sharing. You've given me something to ponder.