"Too Good to be True"
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"Too Good to be True"
That phrase has been looping through my head nearly obsessively the last week.
I recently started "hanging out" with a girl I have "seen around" for awhile.
Some background, one thing I try to practice is "detachment" in that I try to learn "detachment" not only from those around me, but more importantly to me, from my own emotions.
It's the difference between "being" hungry, and "having" hunger.
So I have been watching me with some amusement as I go through this process of "having a crush" and noting with some amusement things like "I am crazy about this girl" with attention on things like...the word crazy, LOL
Anyway....In my morning meditation, that thought kept crowding into my head, "too good to be true too good to be true" so I allowed it to be my morning meditation.
What was "too good to be true"
What I came up with was "someone who liked me for me, and was nice to me" was "too good to be true"
I nearly started crying.
I could "see" my lil inner child inside of me, feeling he was unworthy of love, unworthy of being treated kindly, unworthy of being happy.
I could literally "see" that ten year old...lonely, scared, frightened, alone, unworthy
I wanted to give that lil fella a hug, and tell him he was worthy of love, worthy of someone being nice to him.
What happened?
Where did I cross that line of just someone being nice to me was "too good to be true", being treated with love, integrity, honor, honesty, forgiveness...was too much to ask for?
You know what?
It's not "too good to be true" I have no idea what will happen with this "girl" but from right now, this moment on...it's not "too good to be true" to allow someone in my life be nice to me.
I am worthy of love, of being treated well, of treating myself well, of allowing healthy love into my life....I just had forgotten that.
I recently started "hanging out" with a girl I have "seen around" for awhile.
Some background, one thing I try to practice is "detachment" in that I try to learn "detachment" not only from those around me, but more importantly to me, from my own emotions.
It's the difference between "being" hungry, and "having" hunger.
So I have been watching me with some amusement as I go through this process of "having a crush" and noting with some amusement things like "I am crazy about this girl" with attention on things like...the word crazy, LOL
Anyway....In my morning meditation, that thought kept crowding into my head, "too good to be true too good to be true" so I allowed it to be my morning meditation.
What was "too good to be true"
What I came up with was "someone who liked me for me, and was nice to me" was "too good to be true"
I nearly started crying.
I could "see" my lil inner child inside of me, feeling he was unworthy of love, unworthy of being treated kindly, unworthy of being happy.
I could literally "see" that ten year old...lonely, scared, frightened, alone, unworthy
I wanted to give that lil fella a hug, and tell him he was worthy of love, worthy of someone being nice to him.
What happened?
Where did I cross that line of just someone being nice to me was "too good to be true", being treated with love, integrity, honor, honesty, forgiveness...was too much to ask for?
You know what?
It's not "too good to be true" I have no idea what will happen with this "girl" but from right now, this moment on...it's not "too good to be true" to allow someone in my life be nice to me.
I am worthy of love, of being treated well, of treating myself well, of allowing healthy love into my life....I just had forgotten that.
Last edited by Ago; 11-20-2008 at 10:42 AM.
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I am worthy of love, of being treated well, of treating myself well, of allowing healthy love into my life....I just had forgotten that.
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