lostbutterfly

My manager, whose desk is right next to me, brought in a load of prescription strength co-codamol and took some right in front of me (he isn't feeling too well and he gets them off his step-dad).

He's gone home now, with his illness, and his co-codamol, thank God!! But the lies were right on the tip of my tongue and every time he left his desk, I was thinking .....!

Kept my mouth shut, kept my hands to myself, which is a lot more than I did the last time someone bought prescription narcs into the office!

See, even fat flying guinea-pigs get the message eventually, lol!!

windysan

Good job !

tommyk

Congats.

Often we think we'd like that kind of thing, but it really is unnecessary, right?

madriley

Good for you LB!! When you pass over the golden opportunity for prescription narcs you know that you are now clearly in recovery!!

lostbutterfly

I just wanted these things to make me feel the way they used to, forever and ever, till death do us part, amen.

But they can't, so there's just no point taking them, is there? You always land up at the same place, over and over again.

LadyTennII

Lost, you are such a strong amazing woman, I would have probably cracked right there, I am so proud of you and happy for you!!! GO BUTTERFLY GO!!!!

ccgirl2

Baby steps, Butterfly, baby steps!!!! Way to go!

northbelle

Amen..why ruin a perfectly good day??? It has enough problems of its own to add some crazy making dope to the day huh?? I am proud of you!! See you are getting stronger!!! me too..
love north

lostbutterfly

No thank you buttons anymore - thank you all.

Saying that, I hope he doesn't bring them in tomorrow. First the doc's appt., now this stuff being waved under my nose!!

They say God never gives you more than you can handle, but I think He may have me mistaken for someone else!!!!

Impurrfect

Way to go!!!

My stepmom seems to have an endless supply of pain meds, anti-anxiety meds, and muscle relaxers. I finally told her to put them away, so I wouldn't see them.

I didn't really WANT them, but it sure plays games with your mind when they're sitting right in front of you.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

madriley

Hey Lost I think that you have forgotten something, you DID handle it!! You have to give yourself some credit.... if someone else had posted the same situation you know that you would be praising them. Don't be afraid to be proud of yourself, you're doing an awesome job! Keep it up!

princezz07

Well lost, you may be a butterfly, but i sure dont think your lost anymore,
infact i think your well on your journey....your path to enlightenment ???
Weldone my friend, keep on doing the next right thing,
you give hope to many including myself. xx

lostbutterfly

Hey princezz, how you doing??

Yep, one day at a time, right?

lostbutterfly

Thank you guys, your faith in me is very touching, altho not sure how much I deserve it!

Well, manager was off sick today, and the temptation to go rootling through his drawers was strong. But I figured it was easier to stop myself going through his drawers that it would be to stop myself taking what I found in there.

I think I've caught his wretched flu, just in time for the weekend - oh joy!

madriley

Hey Lost, I'm sorry you're not feeling good. Better to be sick with the flu then sick from w/d right? Keep chugging along, it can only get easier you are doing awesome!!! Feel Better

Vintersemestre

Same sort of situation, almost right after I quit my mother was prescribed hydrocodone and oxycodone for kidney stone pains. Haven't even gone rifling through drawers searching for them like I used to. Sometimes I wonder if staying clean is worth all of this suffering, but my suffering (depression) is the reason why I was getting drugged up to begin with. I have to deal with that now.

lostbutterfly

This is like w/d's except I don't deserve it this time. It's not very nice. I haven't had proper flu for over five years - see, all that codeine has been keeping it at bay! Now look at me, all poorly!

I have to go to bed - maybe I will sleep now.

Vinter, you can let things out here you know. Don't have to direct anything inwards. Not going to tell you that's a better way, or anything, as you seem to be doing something right!

lostbutterfly

What is this, temptation week or what?

Now I have flu and feel well within my rights to get some decent medicine for the aches and general misery! Should have nicked the co-codomal and lied to the doctor while I had the chance!

All things go in threes, this must be number three right?

vicodaniel

way to go lost ! Temptation is everywhere. I think everyone knows its not better on dope just easier. you'll be fine !!