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I can see and feel my health returning to me- slow as it is. I am still suffering the back pain, but I am seeing a Rolfer and hopefully that will start to help. I am tired of being in pain - at least I don't have hangovers on top of it.

I have been feeling isolated lately. I have no social life to speak of.And at this point , I don't want one. Alcohol is what you do around here. There is no "reward" after my work day where there used to be wine. My husband drinks, so it's in my face every night. I guess I don't want it or I would have it.

I am impatient as Hell. I want time to pass and my body to improve. It seems you can screw yourself up so quickly and the road back is such hard work. I guess because being irresponsible and self destructive is easy and caring for yourself requires commitment and dedication. Duh.

I'm hanging on - you do the same.

Anna

I think it's true that it's a long road back. For awhile, I thought I messed up relatively quickly, but when I look back, I see that my behaviour was addictive, long before I began drinking. So, I guess it's fair that it takes a long time to work through it.

You can still reward yourself after a day of work, but just not with a drink. I think it's just a shifting of perspective. Ice-cream became my new best friend.

least

Big hugs for you to reward you for your nineteen sober days! :ghug3

Keep moving forward and try to reward yourself with something special, whatever that may be. I understand the feeling of not much to do, Alaska is a great place for wildlife and wilderness, but kind of short on entertainment, I guess.

I'm glad you can resist drinking when it's going on right in your face. You are very strong and must want sobriety very much to stay sober in such conditions. You have my respect for sure!

:ghug3

Latte

Congratulations!

I'm not far from you and I know how it is about the national past time here.

It gets better.