Paulos

That was a close one today... after about 13 days on Clomipramine in total, and also about 6 days doubled up on it according to the doctor... I was having real bad side effects today. It was bad enough I couldn't urinate normally, was dizzy, shaky, and confused/mind blocked like I always am mind troubled/ocd but I just kept saying "this med should help it should help it's my only hope" ... but instead today I got up at 1:30pm, and I simply ran up the stairs and it was as if all the blood rushed to my head, making me nearly faint, and *I haven't been eating at all lately, lost about 20 lbs* I have an emergency appointment with my doctor tomorrow but he said to stop the Clomipramine immediately so that's nice... still on my Zoloft/Xanax of course... that's about it on that... Not a very good day for me, I'm also feeling very attention defecate lately... can't concentrate on one thing too long... and my Wii broke I'm sad, life sucks right now. -_-

LosingmyMisery

I"m sorry things aren't going well, Paulos. I hope you feel better now that you are off the med. I'm glad you will be seeing your Dr. tomorrow. Take care of yourself and get well. Hopefully someone can fix your Wii. Hang in there...

nandm

((((Paulos)))))

historyteach

(((Paulos)))

I'm so sorry....
My thoughts and prayers are with you...

I hope the doc can help and that you can get a new wII game soon to help you pass the time. In the mean time, do you have any other hobbies? Can you take up one?

Shalom!

Paulos

thanks for your concern all, but my mind is constantly bashing me on things I should be thinking of, should be doing... it's so aching and painful... everything is just falling apart.

historyteach

Can you work any of it out here, Paulos?
I hate to see you suffer so...

And are you talking to your counselor about all of this?

Shalom!

Paulos

I just feel so stupid, so inadequate to the world... wretched autism ruined my life... so did boozing... it's like I've had an awakening that I'm so out of it... I just don't know what to do...