HI there a newbie in the house
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HI there a newbie in the house
Hi and hello to you all!
I am not new to forums but I am new to an alcohol forum.
I am mum to 2 beautiful boys whom I adore greatly they are my life and light.
I also have a wonderful husband, he works hard but is devoted to us and is home when he can.
However, I live with a struggle I have had for a long while now.
I am an alcoholic.
I am 26 and spent the most part of my life almost drinking myself into an early grave as a teenager and young adult.
I am not sure why. MY father died from an uncurable illness when I was 18mnths old and mum my did the best she could raising me.
Things started when I was in early highschool and by the time I moved away and joined the army (the biggest mistake as far as booze is concerned) I was drinking a 24pack of beer by myself every night before hitting the town to spend my weekly wages.
It ruined everything, the relationship with my ex, my career and most of all
my sense of self worth.
I was put into a rehab clinic on command of my commanding officer and spent a week de toxing which was hell I have never been so ill in my life.
Anyhoo long story short I recovered met a new man moved over seas and got married, had two children.
I am happy in love, but started drinking again, heavily. I am drinking at least every second night a bottle of scotch and I feel like the worst mum in the world. I only drink at night so my kids are in bed, but I am hungover the next day and not the mum I should be for them.
Dunno what to do, dunno why I am even posting, I dont want to hear everyone tell to stop, so yeah...........thanks for even reading thus far...
I am not new to forums but I am new to an alcohol forum.
I am mum to 2 beautiful boys whom I adore greatly they are my life and light.
I also have a wonderful husband, he works hard but is devoted to us and is home when he can.
However, I live with a struggle I have had for a long while now.
I am an alcoholic.
I am 26 and spent the most part of my life almost drinking myself into an early grave as a teenager and young adult.
I am not sure why. MY father died from an uncurable illness when I was 18mnths old and mum my did the best she could raising me.
Things started when I was in early highschool and by the time I moved away and joined the army (the biggest mistake as far as booze is concerned) I was drinking a 24pack of beer by myself every night before hitting the town to spend my weekly wages.
It ruined everything, the relationship with my ex, my career and most of all
my sense of self worth.
I was put into a rehab clinic on command of my commanding officer and spent a week de toxing which was hell I have never been so ill in my life.
Anyhoo long story short I recovered met a new man moved over seas and got married, had two children.
I am happy in love, but started drinking again, heavily. I am drinking at least every second night a bottle of scotch and I feel like the worst mum in the world. I only drink at night so my kids are in bed, but I am hungover the next day and not the mum I should be for them.
Dunno what to do, dunno why I am even posting, I dont want to hear everyone tell to stop, so yeah...........thanks for even reading thus far...
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Join Date: Jun 2008
Location: Galway Ireland
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5 days ago i could not think straight, detoxed in the most cruel way imaginable, i really thought my number was up. Anyways 5 days later the fog is lifting, the rubbish is slowly leaving my veins and my mind has begun to work. this site helped me and will help you to
welcome and good luck!
welcome and good luck!
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Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: England
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Hello Mummydrink and welcome to SR.
There are loads of decent people here with great advice and support for you.No one to tell you what to do only advise you on all your options. Hope you stick around and best wishes to you.
There are loads of decent people here with great advice and support for you.No one to tell you what to do only advise you on all your options. Hope you stick around and best wishes to you.
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Join Date: Jun 2008
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Thank you heaps guys. This sounds so sneaky but I dont want to tell DH about this yet, he will stop me as he helped me through my last battle, I am still in hiding about my drinking atm.
Hence why I need here to vent my problems till I can either overcome them or tell him about it.
Hence why I need here to vent my problems till I can either overcome them or tell him about it.
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Location: NYC - New York
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Welcome Mummy
Congratulations on your children and your husband - And great job for reaching out here at SR.
I hate being told what to do as well - even when it's well intentioned. You know what you want to do and we are here to help you, even if it's just listening to you vent.
Congratulations on your children and your husband - And great job for reaching out here at SR.
I hate being told what to do as well - even when it's well intentioned. You know what you want to do and we are here to help you, even if it's just listening to you vent.
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