A couple of steps away from hell
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A couple of steps away from hell
I have to say that I've been feeling really good the past months that I have been sober - I honestly feel I'm really beginning to appreciate life so much more.
I have so much more energy, I look and feel better than I have in years and am even making new friends and engaging in social activities which drinking had been keeping me from for years. I'm even thinking of a career change at the end of my degree, something I probably would never have considered before.
But every day, however far away my old life seems to be away from me now - I remind myself that I am only a couple of steps away from hell. One drink, however innocent I paint it in my mind, will throw me right back in to the mess I was in before and it will only get worse from there.
I've read it on these boards, I've heard it on the radio and from people's lips, seen it with my own eyes - "if I only I hadn't taken that one drink".
One step back would be one step too far for me and I remind myself of that every day and how lucky I've been to have been given this chance to escape my old life and to move toward true freedom through sobriety.
Thank you SR for helping me through the most difficult parts of my initial recovery and for providing the vital spark of motivation to stop permanently. Thank you everybody for being here and sharing my journey with me and for sharing your own experiences and battles.
Thank you to all my friends in 'bottoms' as well, who's good humour is always welcome (if you are a 'noob', a wee visit to the 'bottoms' thread is a good idea for some light relief).
So thanks again, and may we always move forward together in sobriety. I mean that from the very bottom of my heart.
I have so much more energy, I look and feel better than I have in years and am even making new friends and engaging in social activities which drinking had been keeping me from for years. I'm even thinking of a career change at the end of my degree, something I probably would never have considered before.
But every day, however far away my old life seems to be away from me now - I remind myself that I am only a couple of steps away from hell. One drink, however innocent I paint it in my mind, will throw me right back in to the mess I was in before and it will only get worse from there.
I've read it on these boards, I've heard it on the radio and from people's lips, seen it with my own eyes - "if I only I hadn't taken that one drink".
One step back would be one step too far for me and I remind myself of that every day and how lucky I've been to have been given this chance to escape my old life and to move toward true freedom through sobriety.
Thank you SR for helping me through the most difficult parts of my initial recovery and for providing the vital spark of motivation to stop permanently. Thank you everybody for being here and sharing my journey with me and for sharing your own experiences and battles.
Thank you to all my friends in 'bottoms' as well, who's good humour is always welcome (if you are a 'noob', a wee visit to the 'bottoms' thread is a good idea for some light relief).
So thanks again, and may we always move forward together in sobriety. I mean that from the very bottom of my heart.
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Thanks - you have been a great support "tool" for me 
Seriously - thanks rk....i need to always remember how what started out as a couple of beers during the stanley cup finals...ended up with an 8 year drunk, pancreatitis, hospitals and the like.....
let's just post our way through sobriety!
Seriously - thanks rk....i need to always remember how what started out as a couple of beers during the stanley cup finals...ended up with an 8 year drunk, pancreatitis, hospitals and the like.....
let's just post our way through sobriety!
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RK your are yet another inspiration here on these boards!
Many of you astound me with how much you have pulled yourselves through and have
come to a new level in your life where you can enjoy and live LIFE! Keep those steps
forward! Your doing great-my friend
I'm so very proud of you RK and proud to have you as a great (idiot) friend and as one of Stoney's "bottoms" dwellers! :ghug
Rock on…..Love ya RK!
Many of you astound me with how much you have pulled yourselves through and have
come to a new level in your life where you can enjoy and live LIFE! Keep those steps
forward! Your doing great-my friend
I'm so very proud of you RK and proud to have you as a great (idiot) friend and as one of Stoney's "bottoms" dwellers! :ghug
Rock on…..Love ya RK!
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Originally Posted by RK2007 
I remind myself that I am only a couple of steps away from hell. One drink, however innocent I paint it in my mind, will throw me right back in to the mess I was in before and it will only get worse from there.:
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Thanks for reminding me that hell is one drink away. On the flip side, not drinking is bringing me closer to God whom I give all to.
Lets face it, our society romanicizes alcholol. The furthur we get away from it the easier it is to think (even in the back our minds) one won't hurt.
I always have to remind myself that drinking never made anything better and zero is by far the easiest number ( 'easiest" - sound good to me ).
Better and better every day in every way - a life without numbness, - it may not always be great - but at least it is real.
Lets face it, our society romanicizes alcholol. The furthur we get away from it the easier it is to think (even in the back our minds) one won't hurt.
I always have to remind myself that drinking never made anything better and zero is by far the easiest number ( 'easiest" - sound good to me ).
Better and better every day in every way - a life without numbness, - it may not always be great - but at least it is real.
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