Hey All...Thanks but Bye....
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It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem Rob. Life can be so much better when we give it a chance. I've been where you are. Please don't do this, and think about the effect it will have on your family and friends too.
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Forum Leader
Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: Scottsdale, AZ, one big happy dysfunctional family!
Posts: 23,061
Friday, July 25, 2008
You are reading from the book Touchstones
Everyone once, once only. Just once and no more. And we also once. Never again. But this having been once, although only once, to have been of the earth, seems irrevocable.
--Rainer Maria Rilke
In the hopelessness of addiction and codependency, and as children of addicts, some of us have considered suicide, and some of us have actually tried to kill ourselves. We have maintained the option as an escape in case life got too difficult. Now, in recovery, we have chosen life. We've stopped killing ourselves in the slow ways of our old behaviors, yet some of us hold on to our ace in the hole. Either consciously or unconsciously, we haven't made that unconditional commitment to life.
It may be one firmer step into recovery - a vote for the life we have been given - to say, "I will never choose suicide. Whatever comes my way, it is not an option for me." When we give up that one final controlling maneuver, we may find ourselves freer to live in this one irretrievable life we've been given.
In choosing to be totally on the side of life, I step further into the care of God. Whatever 1 must meet, God is with me.
From Touchstones: A Book of Daily Meditations for Men ©1986, 1991 by Hazelden Foundation.
You are reading from the book Touchstones
Everyone once, once only. Just once and no more. And we also once. Never again. But this having been once, although only once, to have been of the earth, seems irrevocable.
--Rainer Maria Rilke
In the hopelessness of addiction and codependency, and as children of addicts, some of us have considered suicide, and some of us have actually tried to kill ourselves. We have maintained the option as an escape in case life got too difficult. Now, in recovery, we have chosen life. We've stopped killing ourselves in the slow ways of our old behaviors, yet some of us hold on to our ace in the hole. Either consciously or unconsciously, we haven't made that unconditional commitment to life.
It may be one firmer step into recovery - a vote for the life we have been given - to say, "I will never choose suicide. Whatever comes my way, it is not an option for me." When we give up that one final controlling maneuver, we may find ourselves freer to live in this one irretrievable life we've been given.
In choosing to be totally on the side of life, I step further into the care of God. Whatever 1 must meet, God is with me.
From Touchstones: A Book of Daily Meditations for Men ©1986, 1991 by Hazelden Foundation.
Looking For Myself...Sober
Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Where the heart is
Posts: 10,209
Rob..All thats gonna do is leave your family with worse life long misery.
You can recoevry. You cant come back from that.
And honestly..Thats pretty selfish of you.
WHat about your kids?
It is a year ago I attempted this. I shouldnt be here. But for some reason I am.
And I will tell you this.
As much pain as I thought I was putting on my family. Was nothing compared to what their reactions were when they walked in and saw me.
I will leave the gorey details out. But I will say I have never seen such pain in any of their eyes as I did that day.
I am sitting here responding with tears in my eyes.
Please dont ever think that is ever a solution. Because it is the worst thing you could ever do to not only yourself..But to the ones who really do love you.
That would damage your kids for life.
It's is a weak way to go.
Be strong. You can do it.
You can recoevry. You cant come back from that.
And honestly..Thats pretty selfish of you.
WHat about your kids?
It is a year ago I attempted this. I shouldnt be here. But for some reason I am.
And I will tell you this.
As much pain as I thought I was putting on my family. Was nothing compared to what their reactions were when they walked in and saw me.
I will leave the gorey details out. But I will say I have never seen such pain in any of their eyes as I did that day.
I am sitting here responding with tears in my eyes.
Please dont ever think that is ever a solution. Because it is the worst thing you could ever do to not only yourself..But to the ones who really do love you.
That would damage your kids for life.
It's is a weak way to go.
Be strong. You can do it.
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Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: England
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Rob mate, all your regrets, disappointments and failings will pale into insignificance at the regret you will feel over this. As for your sorrow and pain as you see your family suffer..
Get help Rob, think of you and think of your family.
Get help Rob, think of you and think of your family.
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Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Dayton, Ohio
Posts: 2,305
I'm hoping that those who have read this thread up to this point have already asked God to please be with Rob at this time.
Let him see that whatever has brought him to this point can be dealt with if Rob simply asks for God's help.
If you have not Prayed yet, please.
This could be you, it could be me, It could be anyone.
"God, I ask you to please reach down now and take Rob into your hands and let him see that his work on this earth is not done. His Family needs him as we all do. Be with Rob, give him the inner peace that you have filled my heart and soul with."
Let him see that whatever has brought him to this point can be dealt with if Rob simply asks for God's help.
If you have not Prayed yet, please.
This could be you, it could be me, It could be anyone.
"God, I ask you to please reach down now and take Rob into your hands and let him see that his work on this earth is not done. His Family needs him as we all do. Be with Rob, give him the inner peace that you have filled my heart and soul with."
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Central Illinois
Posts: 37
C'mon Rob. You & me have been fighting this thing on pretty close to the same timeline. I havn't posted as much as I should have but your posts have helped me when I needed it. Were in the same boat and believe me I know it's not easy. Take a deep breath.... we need you man!!!
Doug
Doug
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Join Date: Dec 2004
Location: Canada
Posts: 19
Ok Rob, I have been lurking here for a few years but you brought me out of lurking mode...Please, do not do this.. My sister did it years ago and I cannot tell you how it affected her children who needed her, even though she had big problems. Please reconsider and make a call to save your life. It is well worth saving my friend. Please do NOT do what you're thinking of doing.
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: California
Posts: 111
Rob - You are obviously in a lot of pain right now but please remember that if you try to end your pain this way, you will cause a world of pain for the people who love you. They need you. It may not seem like it now, but things will get better. Life is beautiful, don't lose your chance to live it. Please post and let us know you're OK.
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