orviske

I grew up in a little tiny town in upstate New York...and for the most part, i was a good girl. I am the adult child of an alcoholic----so besides my own concerns for my own life, I don't think I have ever really healed from that either.

I recently moved to Alabama and am not adjusting well. I have a traveling sales job that I am miserable with. My relationship suffers. I'm never home. I've made no friends aside from one girl who just happens to be a cocaine addict. She always makes plans to do something together...just us girls. In fact, she promised today. Funny how when she said it I knew she wouldn't call. Why? Because she was high....and that's how that terrible drug is.

Since I was 18 I have used marijuana. It wasn't until I moved to Alabama that I started using other drugs. Part of me want to rebel now that I'm older, especially after having been such a good girl growing up.

I see our drug use affecting our life. I'm not sure that we're addicts, but I definitely think we're substance abusers. And really that's a fine line....a slippery slope.

I have become a disorganized, depressed and weak person. I'm tired of that too. I'm not sure if this is the place for me, but it certainly does seem good to vent to people that understand.

Thanks to all who i have run into in the chat room. You have helped me beyond measure!

Sober: day 1

Captain Kirk

hi.
you're in good company here. lots of wisdom and good advice to be shared here.
congratulations on Day 1

Mattcake

Hi orviske, I'm glad you decided to take the plunge As you know, you'll find lots of support here. Post a lot, read a lot, chat a lot.

Matt

orviske

Thanks so much.....

Aysha

Orv..I hope you ate!! Yes I am going to hound you until I get a full detailed menu of what you ate. J/K.
Seriously though. Now is the time to get this under control before it does get out of hand. And by under control...I mean your life. No more drugs. It gets so much worse.
You still have a chnace to salvage some things before you lose it all.
You know we are here for you.

CarolD

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