mimi54321

OK, Last night I had 2 glasses of wine.
Puked it up, hated myself.
Saw my counsellor today.
It was SO DIFFICULT.
Came home.
Ate, ate and ate, puked then drank.
Slept.
Now I am tired and annoyed with me.
That's about it.
Hope you're all doing well, sure you're better than me
M xxxx

Dee74

Don't beat yourself up Mimi...drinking's what we we've done for a while..staying sober is damn hard.

I know you want to quit so...learn from this, and get back on the wagon
I haven't been around much - you doing this lone wolf style, M ?

D

nandm

Don't give up. Sometimes it takes some trial and error to find the method of recovery that works for you. So this way didn't work. Get back up and find one that does work for you. You can do this.

stone

It's a hard thing to do Mimi.

Keep trying!

Anna

Mimi,

Take the experience and learn from it and move forward.

What made you take the wine last night, after 7 days sober? Figure out how to avoid that situation next time.

Aysha

Old habits die hard. But they can be broken. Learn and move on. And by all means ...Never ever give up.

SF69

Keep at it Mimi. I know you can do it!

:ghug3

Goodnfast

Mimi:

Last night you had a failure, a single failure in your recovery. How many "successes" did you have drinking before you quit? The comparison will hopefully put things in perspective.

Hope

Many people had false starts in sobriety, myself included.
You can do it.

Hold on to hope and never let it go. You are worth it!

Missymae737

Hi Mimi,

Early sobriety is most challenging...I slipped a few times...I finally reached a point that I burned through all my options and ended up homeless, carless, forced against my will into mental institutions, DUI, BUT most of all ,

I was dancing with death!!! You do not have to go down that life filled with misery. What little life I had in me encouraged me to attend meetings, and come here.

I am living life to the fullest...

Make up your mind not to drink, no matter what...It's the only we alcoholics have a chance to make it...

Thinking of you...:ghug3

dave47

Congrats on your honesty Mimi and as others say, we don't always get it right so just keep on trying. Best wishes to you and keep posting.

Rowan

What's next, Mimi? Just because you picked up doesn't mean you have to continue down that road. Begin again. Go to a meeting. You CAN do this.

mimi54321

Thank you all. I have been throwing up for the last 24 hours. Is it a bug? Feels like it but maybe its just my body not wanting this anymore....

I'm so scared. So scared of life without drink, no escape from my head. This alone makes me feel sick. No escape.

Please, how do you deal with your head with no escape??

M x

Rowan

A day at a time, Mimi, that's how. We become so used to numbing our emotions with booze and drugs it's extremely painful feeling anything. I understand that.
Work on getting sober first and try your very best to stay in today. Go to meetings and share how you are feeling. Take home phone numbers for other women and use them. I relied heavily on other people, especially in early recovery. We did a lot of sober activities together, and doing so helped me deal with all the feelings I was experiencing. It also helped me to laugh at myself when we would go out and tell funny stories from our past.
Come on Mimi, I know you can do this.

mimi54321

OK, I'm back on it. Day 1 again I guess

I really admire all of you that have stayed clean, this is so damn difficult... But I'll try just for today again.

I worked out why I drank, I was hungry and tired and no doubt lonely too. Three out of 4things we are told not to do. Well, onwards and upwards, I'll try to do a meeting tonight. Thanks Rowan and everyone for your support, it really helps so much.

Big kiss
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