readytorecover

It is only day 2, and this is about the time I break out the wine. And boy, do I want to break out the wine right now.
My husband is on his way home, maybe we can get out of the house for a while. I hope so.
I did not think I would want it so bad, thought it was just a habit.

God, hear my prayers. Please.

Shari:praying

Taking5

Hang in there. I am back on day 1 myself.

Pinkcuda

Don't break out the wine, break out the book. Are you doing anything for support?

Budd

Hi Shari
Getting out of the house or doing anything that you do when you are not drinking may help. Good luck on your new sober life.

Rowan

It's just a craving, and it will pass.
Getting out of the house is a good idea - go for a walk, brush your teeth, read, listen to music, anything, just don't drink.
It gets easier. Tell yourself you will get through this.

kelsh

Hi ReadytoRecover,

It is hard...don't let anyone fool you! Some of us had to take it one second at a time, then one minute at a time, then one hour at a time, then One Day At A Time.
Please wait for your husband to get home and do something together, even talk over how you are feeling. If he is not an alcoholic he has no idea of the strong craves and urges you will experience in the first few days. :comfort

Go to a meeting tonight. All the little things and this and thats mean nothing right now but soon you will be saying the Slogans just as we sometimes do.

The Serenity Prayer was the most helpful part of my recovery. I said it over and over many times a day and was finally able to clear my mind enough to figure out what things I couldn't change and accept them as they were, and the things I could change were what I could work on. It saved me a lot of worry.

I feel for you. You must feel all alone and like no one understands what you are going through but believe me we do. You just have to hang tough and do a lot of self-talk about the positive things that will come to you eventually if you can stay sober.

kelsh

CarolD

In early sobriety I timed my cravings.
They lasted 5 to 7 minuts to start with.

I did take actions then...as Rowan suggested.

Rather quickly...they lessened in duration and severity.

Yes they are strong but so can you be.
Drinking again is like sticking a band aid on a bloody cut.
It just won't make it better...

Blessings to you and your family

Anna

Hi,

There's lots of support here, so keep reading and posting.

Do something that will take your mind off drinking, even for a few minutes. I found that walking really helped me and listening to music too. Use whatever works for you to get through the cravings.

ANGELINA243

Keep posting--or pick up the phone and call someone. Do you have a Recovery group other than SR? Sometimes hearing the sound of another sober friend over the phone has helped me when I get really anxious concerning picking up a drink.

readytorecover

Well, my husband did get home quickly. We had an open bottle of wine in the frig, and he poured it down the sink for me. God I love him.

Then we went to a sports bar (of all places) to eat.

He suggested a beer to take the edge off, but I refused. Then the server suggested an O'Doul's non-alcohol beer. So I had one. Then....read the bottle. It has 0.5% alcohol per bottle. I thought it really meant "none". I don't feel anything from it, but I am so nauseated at the thought.

I think the nausea is in my head, feeling like I let myself down, innocent as it was.

Guess you live and learn. Thanks to all of you for support. My husband understands now why I am so adamant about not having ANY alcohol. I will not beat myself up over this, chalk it up to a learning experience. I'm ok. I'm looking forward to working a 12 hour shift tomorrow. (in the ER):comfort
Time to start again.
Shari

Rowan

Why did he pour the wine down the sink, then suggest a beer??
You will find there are different schools of thought on the NA beer - I stay away from it myself. It sounds like you made an honest mistake.
You're doing great - hang in there - and have a good shift tomorrow.

readytorecover

Thanks Rowan,
Ron (my husband) just needs some education on how to deal with all this. He said "surely one is ok". And I told him it was not. I explained that NONE is ok. He thought it was like tapering off something, I guess.

Anyhow, now he knows. He doesn't have any addictions, and we are seeing a marriage counselor, so I have asked her to provide some suggestions for him when dealing with alcoholism.

Thanks,
Shari

lostmdboy

and then go to a bar?????? Temptation is every where, b ut in the first days of sobriety for me a bar would just be the wrong place for me.

Pinkcuda

While waiting for the Counselor, have him read this. It might give him somewhat of an understanding.
http://www.aa.org/bigbookonline/en_doctoropinion.cfm

readytorecover

I am almost speechless. Thank you so much for the info. I will have my husband read it ASAP.

Wow. I have a lot to do. And I will.

Thank you - you are an angel.

Shari

gypsytears

Hi readytorecover . Just catching up now, nice to meet you. You have a good attitude so far...NONE is the answer. Keep posting!