still_me

I think I need to be in a hospital right now. Right this minute I'm trying so hard to not fly apart. I have that paniced feeling inside my chest. Later I'll be in tears and later I'll be angry and say things to people i don't mean. I hate me and I hate life right now. I'm not seeing a way out of this. I am trying so hard to not let anyone know how bad it is but I"m feeling out of it and not myself. I have not job right now and no way to take care of myself. I really do hate me. I mean I hate me so much I can hardly stand it right now.

things just aren't nice right now.

CarolD

Hugs..
I am so sorry to see you in pain.
Could you call a friend or family member?
Go to an ER or call 911?

Please take care of yourself
Blessings

shutterbug

yes...call and friend and/or family member if at all possible. which i didn't think that do-able when i was feeling like you are, but both my mom and a woman i'd barely met took me to help me admit myself. You need to go to the ER or call a crisis center in your area, or get someone to do it for you, and go there. I've been told that going to an ER first tends to make things go smoother and quicker when self-admitting to a mental health facility.

hang in there...get yourself some help, you deserve it whether you believe it or not. Btw, i hate myself too....really, really hate myself all the time and it really makes mental health crisis's like this into even more of a crisis. Keep telling yourself to stop beating up the little girl inside (or boy...sorry, i'm not sure of your gender). Just for today....tell yourself to stop and be gentle for today.

hugs,
jenna

historyteach

((((Still Me))))

Please check in when you can and let us know how you're doing...
...we care.

Shalom!

reader

Thinking of u and hoping u are ok.....

ccgirl

You sound a little desparate. I agree with Carol about the ER. Just don't do anything you can't take back. Go for help as quickly as you can. They won't turn you away.

still_me

Thank you for your comments guys. I have been hanging by a thread here. I HAD decided to just try to hang on through this BUT I just read what shutterbug wrote and at this moment I am feeling like I want to go get help.

I will let you all know what happens. I have to do something cause I don't really know how much more of these intense times I have left in me.

shutterbug

hanging on by a thread is not a good place to be....i think you are doing the right thing. keep remembering to be gentle with yourself.

reader

Where are u still me and how are u~~~` Check in~~ thinking of u

Live

I went in thro the ER 8 days ago and was in the unit for 7 days. I am glad I did. I was headed for a bad, bad place. Tired of hanging onto that rope.