Chickened out of going to AA meeting tonight
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Chickened out of going to AA meeting tonight
Still feel ok, no strong urge to drink just now just couldn't face going to what would be my first AA meeting; think I'll manage fine without it...
I think why I decided to go in the first place was because I felt pretty desperate at that point, but now with a couple of nights free of drink under my belt I don't feel any need to go at all...
I think why I decided to go in the first place was because I felt pretty desperate at that point, but now with a couple of nights free of drink under my belt I don't feel any need to go at all...
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Well, look at you, RK...so pleased with yourself...no longer feeling "desperate"...AA is only for the desperate? Hmmmmn...just remember...you don't have to wait until you're feeling helpless/hopeless again. AA will be there when you want it, whether you think you need it or not!BTW...check out my signature.
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I have done that so many times, RK. And it's alright. It doesn't make you a chicken. Hell, if it did, I would have layed 1,000 eggs by now. When I did it, I don't know if I was ashamed, too proud or terrified of hearing something that made sense. Every addict thinks the world revolves around them. As a matter of fact, the sun only rises for me and sets just to **** me off. 
Anyway - if it helps at all, think of that AA meeting as being there for you - and only you - whenever you need it, because really, it is.
Anyway - if it helps at all, think of that AA meeting as being there for you - and only you - whenever you need it, because really, it is.
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I don't endorse people 'white-knuckling' their way through meetings. Also, I don't endorse people leaving in the middle of a meeting - it reinforces the escape and avoidance.
After going to my first NA meeting, I actually felt like smoking cigarettes and weed.... it was that stressful. When it gets to that point I think there are diminishing returns.
Take baby steps if need be. Ask someone to go with you. Or when you are relaxed and calm, close your eyes, and imagine thru imagery a positive experience at a meeting.
After going to my first NA meeting, I actually felt like smoking cigarettes and weed.... it was that stressful. When it gets to that point I think there are diminishing returns.
Take baby steps if need be. Ask someone to go with you. Or when you are relaxed and calm, close your eyes, and imagine thru imagery a positive experience at a meeting.
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Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: media, pa
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I don't endorse people 'white-knuckling' their way through meetings. Also, I don't endorse people leaving in the middle of a meeting - it reinforces the escape and avoidance.
After going to my first NA meeting, I actually felt like smoking cigarettes and weed.... it was that stressful. When it gets to that point I think there are diminishing returns.
Take baby steps if need be. Ask someone to go with you. Or when you are relaxed and calm, close your eyes, and imagine thru imagery a positive experience at a meeting... continue to do that until your anxiousness subsides.
After going to my first NA meeting, I actually felt like smoking cigarettes and weed.... it was that stressful. When it gets to that point I think there are diminishing returns.
Take baby steps if need be. Ask someone to go with you. Or when you are relaxed and calm, close your eyes, and imagine thru imagery a positive experience at a meeting... continue to do that until your anxiousness subsides.
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Hey RK...
You are doing really great. I am a fan of the "baby steps" (and now the "baby chicken steps") method of dealing with the tough stuff, too. You know, at least you actually looked up AA and found out when and where they meet. That is a pretty big baby step in my mind
Keep at it... because it is working
R.
You are doing really great. I am a fan of the "baby steps" (and now the "baby chicken steps") method of dealing with the tough stuff, too. You know, at least you actually looked up AA and found out when and where they meet. That is a pretty big baby step in my mind
Keep at it... because it is working
R.
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Hi,
AA has saved my life...However, I don't believe AA is for everyone...
"What works for one MAY not work for another.".
I do agree that some type of support is essential for recovery, and a DESIRE to stop drinking...
Wishing you well on your path to recovery.
AA has saved my life...However, I don't believe AA is for everyone...
"What works for one MAY not work for another.".
I do agree that some type of support is essential for recovery, and a DESIRE to stop drinking...
Wishing you well on your path to recovery.
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Don't think i could go to AA yet either,but definitely won't write if off.Trying to work to a regular routine and as long as that works and i feel positive then i will carry on as i am.Sounds like your doing pretty good so far RK,all the best.
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