What I am Admitting
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What I am Admitting
Today I have come to fully admit to myself and to the world that I have a problem with fear. I have a fear of facing fear and I use my fear to keep me stuck repeating the same thoughts, situations, and patterns that have served to make me miserable for more periods of my life than I care to count. And I am fully responsible for that!! So, today I'm standing up and admitting this as well as fully accepting it and that I need to start facing this immobilizing fear....But that is for tomorrow today is awareness and acceptance!!
What is it that you are ready to admit to yourself & the world today?
What is it that you are ready to admit to yourself & the world today?
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It is what it is
Join Date: Jul 2007
Location: NJ
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I admit that I have a lot of work to do in order to improve my life and that I am committed to doing that work until I am a healthier person. I also admit that I am not perfect and that I make mistakes. And that's okay.
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I admit that I have a major problem with trying to make people like me that I seriously need to figure out. Case in point? I was updating my 'mood' on myspace (yes, I'm a dork like that ), and the adjective that truly reflected my mood wasn't a positive one. I wouldn't want anyone to see that I might not be positively chipper, so I picked a different one. Now how weird is that??
Good for you, MTBC.
Good for you, MTBC.
I'm admitting that it I need to cut myself some slack and let time take it's time. As I've grown in recovery over many years I've been impatient with myself and reluctant to give myself a pat on the back for all the work and positive changes in my life. At times I can treat myself as if I haven't accomplished anything at all. I feel that is insulting to me and to God. It's a good thing He understands
Silly me! I'm doing great! Thank you to me and Thank You- HP!!!
Silly me! I'm doing great! Thank you to me and Thank You- HP!!!
I'm definately full of fear for the future and my self esteem is shot. And I have a hard time dealing with denial, acceptance, loss and letting go.
I've spent too much time trying to control AH for my own happiness because I don't fit into his world. The bar scene, the drinking, his friends and many ways his family. Likewise he doesn't share what I want or fit into a world I want.
He's happy, off with his friends, drinking and having "fun" living life the way he wants, being free, coming and going and doing as he pleases. I'm the miserable one home alone, isolated with no friends around me, longing for a peaceful, serene life with shattered hopes and dreams and no one to share life with.
The way I see it now I'm the one with a problem.
I've spent too much time trying to control AH for my own happiness because I don't fit into his world. The bar scene, the drinking, his friends and many ways his family. Likewise he doesn't share what I want or fit into a world I want.
He's happy, off with his friends, drinking and having "fun" living life the way he wants, being free, coming and going and doing as he pleases. I'm the miserable one home alone, isolated with no friends around me, longing for a peaceful, serene life with shattered hopes and dreams and no one to share life with.
The way I see it now I'm the one with a problem.
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I fear being abandoned by the one I love.
I fear my youngest will never move out. (thats a joke... sorta)
I fear I might have to one day get a real job.
I fear my dog will puke on my carpet while I'm gone. (thats NOT a joke)
I fear being abandoned by the one I love.
I fear my youngest will never move out. (thats a joke... sorta)
I fear I might have to one day get a real job.
I fear my dog will puke on my carpet while I'm gone. (thats NOT a joke)
I fear being abandoned by the one I love.
I admit that I AM acceptable and that I am fine just the way I am.
I admit that when I was a child, I did amazing things to cope - and they truly were amazing that I could function as well as I did under the circumstances. Instead of hating the result (being a codie), I admit that I love myself for doing the best with what I had and that now that I am an adult, I don't need those coping mechanisms anymore.
I admit to having the power to protect and nurture my child self and the ability to give my adult self the healthy and happy life I deserve.
I admit that when I was a child, I did amazing things to cope - and they truly were amazing that I could function as well as I did under the circumstances. Instead of hating the result (being a codie), I admit that I love myself for doing the best with what I had and that now that I am an adult, I don't need those coping mechanisms anymore.
I admit to having the power to protect and nurture my child self and the ability to give my adult self the healthy and happy life I deserve.
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