Thank you for your wishes.
tangled up in blue
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: MA
Posts: 401
Thank you for your wishes.
I just wanted to thank everyone for their kind words to me as well as their advice. I also wanted to let you know that I won't be posting on the boards for awhile. I didn't want to fall flat off the face of the earth and I wanted to be able to thank everyone who has helped me. I keep relapsing and today is no different. I drank and took a Zantrex 3. At first, it felt so good but now I'm experiencing the depression that comes afterward and am feeling it ten fold. I don't know why, but last night I got so upset with myself that I made slits in my wrists. I am going to my mom tomorrow and am telling her that I need to check in somewhere because I can't do this myself. Thank you so much for all of your help.
Looking For Myself...Sober
Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Where the heart is
Posts: 10,209
I am so glad to hear you are going to finally ask for help.
There is so much in life to be experienced.
And believe it or not there are alot of things that are interesting sober.
I use to think getting high made everything that much more fun.
Not so.
It is way better clean.
I am sorry to hear you are resorting to hurting yourself like that.
Let me tell you.
That is not the answer.
Then you gotta look at those scars everyday and remind yourself why they are there.
I hope you find your way.
I wish you all the best and I will be praying for you.
Good Luck!
I for one am very proud of you for taking that step.
There is so much in life to be experienced.
And believe it or not there are alot of things that are interesting sober.
I use to think getting high made everything that much more fun.
Not so.
It is way better clean.
I am sorry to hear you are resorting to hurting yourself like that.
Let me tell you.
That is not the answer.
Then you gotta look at those scars everyday and remind yourself why they are there.
I hope you find your way.
I wish you all the best and I will be praying for you.
Good Luck!
I for one am very proud of you for taking that step.
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Join Date: Feb 2005
Location: A place of special Dreams....
Posts: 4,018
You are making the right decission and I will pray for you ..........
You will get the strength to get over this and move on with your life...One day at a time..........We have all been there and done so much to ourselves.....................I can speak for myself and all I remember doing.....even when the counslers tried to help out....................
I made it and there are always days when you may not feel so good......but the program helps with all the friends that are here.........
Good luck and hope to see you come back here where you have friends that truely care...........................HUGS.....
Little Penguin
You will get the strength to get over this and move on with your life...One day at a time..........We have all been there and done so much to ourselves.....................I can speak for myself and all I remember doing.....even when the counslers tried to help out....................
I made it and there are always days when you may not feel so good......but the program helps with all the friends that are here.........
Good luck and hope to see you come back here where you have friends that truely care...........................HUGS.....
Little Penguin
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Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: UK
Posts: 18,299
Hi B2B, sorry to hear about you hurting yourself but SO glad to hear you are asking for help.
I spent 5 months seriously trying to do it by myself, it didnt work. Take any and all help offered! I am going to AA now, something I thought I would never do.
Guess what? It is helping!
I spent 5 months seriously trying to do it by myself, it didnt work. Take any and all help offered! I am going to AA now, something I thought I would never do.
Guess what? It is helping!
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Join Date: May 2007
Location: GA
Posts: 53
Back,
I went to your profile just to understand a little background. I wish I would have "pulled all the stops" when I was your age. I wish I would have done anything to change the path that has brought me to this place at my age. I think your awareness and deep desire for change, coupled with your courage to reach out at your age, is astounding.
Think of a young person. Think of all of the positive attributes that you would endow that person. Physical...Mental...Spiritual...whatever. Now think of the potential for that person as he/she gets older. Now think of a completly bankrupt person in all of those areas. One that has sold his/her soul down a river of alcohol.
Don't do it. You are still very young and can have a great impact. I hope this is more positive than negative. I hope this helps you visualize OUR two paths.
Good Luck.
I went to your profile just to understand a little background. I wish I would have "pulled all the stops" when I was your age. I wish I would have done anything to change the path that has brought me to this place at my age. I think your awareness and deep desire for change, coupled with your courage to reach out at your age, is astounding.
Think of a young person. Think of all of the positive attributes that you would endow that person. Physical...Mental...Spiritual...whatever. Now think of the potential for that person as he/she gets older. Now think of a completly bankrupt person in all of those areas. One that has sold his/her soul down a river of alcohol.
Don't do it. You are still very young and can have a great impact. I hope this is more positive than negative. I hope this helps you visualize OUR two paths.
Good Luck.
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Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Mn
Posts: 48
Please get the help that you need to live a happy life..YOU DESERVE IT.I only wish to have had the strength and determination you have at your age.You are a true INSPIRATION.
My prayers are with you..All the best..
My prayers are with you..All the best..
Looking For Myself...Sober
Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Where the heart is
Posts: 10,209
I have to agree. You are still at an age where you can save alot of pain and loss for yourself.
It does get harder as you get older.
I wish I had been smart enough to have gotten out when I was your age.
Would have saved me alot of things.
But even still for us ot is never too late.
But it is never too early either. The sooner the better.
I hope you find yourself. I know you are special and you deserve it.
So treat yourself to a good life.
And forget about what anybody else is doing.
Make it all about you. Because it is.
It does get harder as you get older.
I wish I had been smart enough to have gotten out when I was your age.
Would have saved me alot of things.
But even still for us ot is never too late.
But it is never too early either. The sooner the better.
I hope you find yourself. I know you are special and you deserve it.
So treat yourself to a good life.
And forget about what anybody else is doing.
Make it all about you. Because it is.
tangled up in blue
Thread Starter
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: MA
Posts: 401
Thanks for all of your support. Just thought I would check in. Tomorrow, I'm seeing a counselor in Indianapolis and later that evening I'm going to an AA meeting. I'm just glad that I'm going to be taking steps toward the right track. I hope everyone else has been doing well. Thankfully, I have yet to relapse again. I'm also reading "A Million Little Pieces" by James Frey, a book about recovery but it was the controversial book that wasn't 100% a memoir. Oh well. I just wanted to read something about struggling with addiction and I didn't have anything else. My Mom and I haven't had "the talk" yet, but I have been dropping pretty obvious hints. Tonight, I watched the MTV awards to see Amy Winehouse perform and she sang "Rehab". I told my Mom that I thought she had alcohol and drug problems and that I could really relate to her and her songs. Ha, big hint but it needed to come out. I will have a more official talk later; first I want to meet with my counselor. This will be our first meeting so I'm kind of nervous.
Thanks again. <3
Thanks again. <3
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Join Date: Apr 2007
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hey BtB
great to hear from you and that you're doin' OK...
yeah I read Frey's book too a while back...don't agree with some..well most...of the viewpoints tho...appreciated it as a story, not as a textbook !!
take care - hope the counsellor and meeting things go well !!
D
great to hear from you and that you're doin' OK...
yeah I read Frey's book too a while back...don't agree with some..well most...of the viewpoints tho...appreciated it as a story, not as a textbook !!
take care - hope the counsellor and meeting things go well !!
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