Elana

I have been dealing with a lot of anger lately and I have expressed some of that here and may have expressed it poorly or inappropriately.

If I have offended anyone with my absolutely graumpy, grouchy and self serving attitude I apologize.

I have offended anyone by my reaction to being hurt by someone else's words, I want to clean that up too and apologize.

I sometimes get in the cat chasing his tail routine just like everyone else. Sometimes I just am so SICK of the issues that I stomp on that tail (and remember it is MY tail). Then I get angry and oh well... dang... anyway.. If I have offended then I offer my apology which y'all can ignore or accept.

Now, I have a journey to go on.... so come on with me and lets kick some recovery butt!!!

Just don't expect my typing or my spelling to be spot on cuz I think faster than I can type and my fingers and my brain get all discombobulated....

best

Two things...

Are you saying we shouldn't be grumpy and grouchy?
*Pout* Guess I will need change my whole self *LOL*

and #2 No problem here so you know there is at least one person you owe no apology to. *LOL*

teke

you don't owe me one either, i'm still so sick that a lot of the time, i still feel guilty even for not feeling guilty. i'm just glad to see you get through some of what was ailing you. so i'm with you on the kicking recovery butt part.

Elana

Oh no.. we can be grumpy and grouchy.. I don't want to take away anyone's fun....

I just think it is the method of xpressing grumpy and grouchy that needs to be thought out better (yes, on my part too) sometimes.

Oh yes.. and impatience. I have expressed that too and if that has been offensive I apologize. I have my time table and I keep having to "tell" my HP to catch up!!!

I really need help on this road....

best

and impatience...

I stopped asking for the gift of and patience. It was taking to long for me to learn it *LOL*

Or was it at the point of me stop waiting for it to come that I learned it?

GiveLove

Elana,

You owe no apology to me, either.
There are people here of all kinds: sharp-tempered people, shy people, soft and gentle people, logical brainy people, alllll kinds. I just think of you as my quirky, sometimes-grumpy cousin up there on her farm, who I love anyway for all that she brings to this party of ours

Admittedly, though, I have rhino-thick skin most of the time, and nowadays it takes an act of congress for me to take things personally.....

You're a helluva big person to say these things though. Much braver than I am!

Love,
Yer quiet thick-skinned cousin in the mountains,
GiveLove

greeteachday

(((((Elana)))))))
You know you owe none to me, that's for sure. You've been a friend and I have felt so grateful to watch your recovery journey and learn from you. How boring life would be if we all acted like Stepford Codies.

I admire your strength and the person you are to share so honestly here.

I'm so glad you are back...Hugs

bookmiser

(((((Elana)))))

You don't owe me nothin' either, sweetie.

liesagain

none to me either................

Brownie

Elana - That was nice of you to post an apology - since all this started even I have felt that I might have said something to offend - but I read a lot of posts and don't always agree but each one has wisdom to offer. So thanks for all your posts - will I ever get in the 4 figures? Wow!

dollydo

I like grumpy, and, I like you.

Come on lets kick some butt....recovery, that is!

pjbs55

Elana,
You took a big step by saying you are sorry. It takes a big person to do that. I took no offense to what you have posted. I just say everyone has a bad day, so I try to over look others moods if I don't like it. I too have said things that I later say ooppps about.
Your recovery is shining. Thank you for posting this,

hope213

no apology needed here. i think we all feel as if maybe it was us....recovery needed here!!

Elana

Thanks all.

I am not feeling guilty.. really I am not.. Honest.. No.. Not I.... REALLY....

OK......
(if you want a lesson how to look and feel guilty when you do something out of line, get a dog. If you want a lesson on how to blow it off and never feel a bit of guilt, get a cat. I have four cats and I am going to get a rescue dog this spring).

marle

Elana, Stay around for a while and share. I like your shares and always get something from them. We need all different kinds of people on here. And people in all stages of recovery. One thing that I have learned over the years is to not take so many things personally. Most of the time it has nothing to do with me anyway. (Even my daughter's addiction, although that one was harder for me not to take personally.) Hugs, Marle