So Confused

Someone responded to my thread with in due time. I guess I started to understand today. I laughed because sometimes you just have to. I actually formed questions from my racing thoughts to a friend When in the end my friend just stared at me waiting for me to answer my own question and I did. As I responded out loud I can tell you just how this will end., It is just like a movie you have seen. I already know what happens. Sitting full of hope and realizing it may take a little more than that this time. For right now i think I am going to pray for guidance and focus on me. I am here for a reason, that I believe. As it seems right now I am just not ready to know. One day at a time.............