Music causing relapse
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Originally Posted by Decemius 
Hi,
I have a question and i am not sure how to go about handling this issue. Before and during my addiction to marijuana i was a big Hip Hop fan. Frequently i could release stress by blasting some good tunes. Hip Hop became part of my personality.
When i was addicted to marijuana i had steady routines, listening to music and mostly Hip Hop while i was smoking and crafting one. Slowly but surely Hip Hop music and marijuana became as one to me.
I quit smoking marijuana twice, first time i succeeded for 8 months, during this time i did not listen to Hip Hop until the final few weeks. I knew it was bad for me. I partially blame the relapse i had to the associations i make between Hip Hop and marijuana.
I remember when i was close to relapsing, the music i listened to reminded me exactly of all those old times, it helped me relapse. After i quit again i swore of the songs i listened to, but nowadays i find myself having trouble just listening to any Hip Hop song/beat.
Something about the music makes me want to relapse, i don't know what it is. And i don't know what to do, Hip Hop was such a big part of my life and it's gone now, will it be forever? I know that drug cravings go on a entire lifetime so i guess so.
What do you think i should do? Personally i think i should find new genres to appreciate for at least a few years until marijuana is but a distant memory.
Thanks
I have a question and i am not sure how to go about handling this issue. Before and during my addiction to marijuana i was a big Hip Hop fan. Frequently i could release stress by blasting some good tunes. Hip Hop became part of my personality.
When i was addicted to marijuana i had steady routines, listening to music and mostly Hip Hop while i was smoking and crafting one. Slowly but surely Hip Hop music and marijuana became as one to me.
I quit smoking marijuana twice, first time i succeeded for 8 months, during this time i did not listen to Hip Hop until the final few weeks. I knew it was bad for me. I partially blame the relapse i had to the associations i make between Hip Hop and marijuana.
I remember when i was close to relapsing, the music i listened to reminded me exactly of all those old times, it helped me relapse. After i quit again i swore of the songs i listened to, but nowadays i find myself having trouble just listening to any Hip Hop song/beat.
Something about the music makes me want to relapse, i don't know what it is. And i don't know what to do, Hip Hop was such a big part of my life and it's gone now, will it be forever? I know that drug cravings go on a entire lifetime so i guess so.
What do you think i should do? Personally i think i should find new genres to appreciate for at least a few years until marijuana is but a distant memory.
Thanks
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Yeah I like new music. All my old stuff has associations, memories or cravings with the drugs I used to use. How lucky am I that I didn't listen to the entire worlds music supply during my druggy career.
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i dont think music causes relapse to some extent its just a excuse to relapse...
if it changes your behavior then i guess it could.
does playing a violent vidoe game amke u wanna go kill someone?
early in rehab they taught us a major problem is reacting to outside things dont let anything control you.
if it changes your behavior then i guess it could.
does playing a violent vidoe game amke u wanna go kill someone?
early in rehab they taught us a major problem is reacting to outside things dont let anything control you.
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I've had severe cravings from music man (especially after I relapsed on the hard ****). It wasn't until after I went through treatment and got COMPLETELY clean that I was able to actually enjoy it again. (I had to stop listening to music for months at a point). I just do what I gotta do.. Turns out my body has restrictions these days.
And what do you mean? You're the one who wrote the thread.
And no a video game is a video game. You try going completely without your favourite music for a week or more and walking the streets and see how angry you get in the end.
And what do you mean? You're the one who wrote the thread.
And no a video game is a video game. You try going completely without your favourite music for a week or more and walking the streets and see how angry you get in the end.
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i agree being completly clean is the only way to go otherwise were just subsituting one drug for another. music is much better clean.
lol it was a guy with a similiar name that strated the thread. If i ever relapse it was cuz i made a consious decision and im a ******* that doesnt care about anoyone but himself.
As for the girlfirnd its been a struggle stuggled in and out of relationships for a year, got cheated on a few times even with fellow members at NA. now ive been with my current gf for like a year living together the whole works. its crazy lol
lol it was a guy with a similiar name that strated the thread. If i ever relapse it was cuz i made a consious decision and im a ******* that doesnt care about anoyone but himself.
As for the girlfirnd its been a struggle stuggled in and out of relationships for a year, got cheated on a few times even with fellow members at NA. now ive been with my current gf for like a year living together the whole works. its crazy lol
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i kinda feel like the younger you get clena and the more succesful you are the less peopel are gonna be happy for you.
i had to take my number off the phone list at my home group a few
years ago. kept getting call sat 2 am saying hey u want this drug or that one
i didnt have a phone my first 4-5 months so it wants a "old drug buddy" it was someone from there. sucks but true
i had to take my number off the phone list at my home group a few
years ago. kept getting call sat 2 am saying hey u want this drug or that one
i didnt have a phone my first 4-5 months so it wants a "old drug buddy" it was someone from there. sucks but true
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Lol I don't really believe in God anymore. I believe in myself.
& I never really got into meetings too too much. I was more into *****.
I just kicked a 3 year Benzo habit so I'm looking forward to next year. I'm a bit "behind" I guess you can say.
And I cut out my drug dealers years ago. I've burnt so much bridges in this city that copping drugs is next to impossible now. I love it.
Anyways man. I'm gonna take off. (I'm not all about this "underground" writing anymore). Sia.
& I never really got into meetings too too much. I was more into *****.
I just kicked a 3 year Benzo habit so I'm looking forward to next year. I'm a bit "behind" I guess you can say.
And I cut out my drug dealers years ago. I've burnt so much bridges in this city that copping drugs is next to impossible now. I love it.
Anyways man. I'm gonna take off. (I'm not all about this "underground" writing anymore). Sia.
All it takes is one try.
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I am clean from all drugs
I mean what am I supposed to say? That I haven't been this clean in seven years. You should go be a politician.
(I ain't gonna waste my time writing forever). It ain't an easy job. Oh wait... I forgot... It's not my job.
I mean what am I supposed to say? That I haven't been this clean in seven years. You should go be a politician.
(I ain't gonna waste my time writing forever). It ain't an easy job. Oh wait... I forgot... It's not my job.
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