Eagle1

I have been a member since 2003. I have had my ups and downs but mostly I have remained using. I did stop a few times but never more than 3 weeks. Now it is 2010....I am getting older (middle 40's) and I NEED to get this done.

The reason I am posting is because I know I need support and also when I post...it is like I am admitting I have a problem, so that for me is a step in itself.

I have to start with the taper system first.......(no health ins). I will be starting today.

See you all soon.

Peace.

Wolfchild

Good luck, best wishes, and many prayers for you.
Maybe attending meetings would also benefit you?

Insulated

What a wonderful life enhancing decision. Have you visited any of the other forums to get an idea of what to expect coming off of your DOC, or plural? A meeting would be a great start.

Eagle1

Thanks for the words !!

I can handle the end of the taper when the physical pain and the fun other stuff starts. It is when it is over...the cravings and the mood swings is the problem for me.

I agree about the meetings...I have never tried one but I will this time.

I am not minimizing or dismissing the fact that I am an addict, but my average dose is 10mg to 30mg EVERYDAY. I know some people that start with that in the morning !!....... So, my physical withdrawl is manageable. But the mental is hard because I am been doing this for 8 years.

baggervance

I was one who started with that in the morning. I never had the will power to taper no matter how good my plan was I always caved hope you can stick with it. 3o mg is alot less than I was doing but if its a problem well its a problem. good luck keep posting.

Eagle1

I know it does not sound like alot....but it is a problem. Now, I kind of feel like I don't fit in here because my addiction is "not up to standards"

Well sorry to bother anyone.

Out.

Dee74

Hi Eagle

welcome back and I hope you stay around.

There's no sign saying 'you must be this tall to ride here'

You'll definitely find support here

D