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Thread Starter
Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Maryland
Posts: 92
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Hi All, I've been a SR creeper for about a year and finally decided it was time to join and start working on my recovery. A series of self destructive behavior of late has left me feeling really out of control and vulnerable. I am disappointing people I care about left and right and truly feeling mortified by my actions/decisions. I know this is a great support system and look forward to engaging with people like myself on the forums.
Just a little backstory, I have been drinking heavily for roughly 20 years. I have not hit any sort of rock bottom crisis event but I feel it's only a matter of time before it all unravels. I am nervous and afraid that the people in my life will not be supportive and some relationships may need to be ended. But I am willing to do what it takes to stick to this commitment.
Thanks for listening.
Just a little backstory, I have been drinking heavily for roughly 20 years. I have not hit any sort of rock bottom crisis event but I feel it's only a matter of time before it all unravels. I am nervous and afraid that the people in my life will not be supportive and some relationships may need to be ended. But I am willing to do what it takes to stick to this commitment.
Thanks for listening.
Member
Join Date: Dec 2014
Posts: 12
Hey Chuck,
I am new today as well, and saw you posted a kind comment in my thread, so I wanted to do the same for you. I also don't have a rock bottom moment, but feel like I am very close to the edge.
Looking forward to sharing a beginning date and supporting each other !
I am new today as well, and saw you posted a kind comment in my thread, so I wanted to do the same for you. I also don't have a rock bottom moment, but feel like I am very close to the edge.
Looking forward to sharing a beginning date and supporting each other !
Member
Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: UK
Posts: 1,130
Chuck. Good to have you on board. As I am sure you know if you've been browsing, we do our best to be a supportive community. We've had a lot of different experiences and different approaches to recovery. But some of us have recovered and our lives have improved significantly as a result. Yours will too.
For Grace
Thread Starter
Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Maryland
Posts: 92
Thank you all for the kind words. It always floors me when complete strangers are better to me than folks I've known for years. I need to keep this completely honest otherwise it's not going to work. Dee74 no I have not stopped drinking yet. I want to. I need to. I am still making excuses. The holidays etc. I am pretty miserable and drinking is the only damn thing I know how to do to make things seem tolerable.
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 51,575
Hi Chuck - it's great to have you with us.
I drank almost 30 yrs. I was still drinking when I joined SR - but I knew what needed to happen. The more I read other's stories, the less alone I felt. I found the courage to give it up - something I'd never have done without all the support from people who really understood. We know you can do it too.
I drank almost 30 yrs. I was still drinking when I joined SR - but I knew what needed to happen. The more I read other's stories, the less alone I felt. I found the courage to give it up - something I'd never have done without all the support from people who really understood. We know you can do it too.
Member
Join Date: Oct 2011
Location: Down Under
Posts: 42
Hey Chuck,
I'm the same - have been lurking here for ages.
I personally drift in and out but the out is not pleasant so I have made a commitment to seriously get sober.
For me drinking is a very slippery slope and I am amazed it has not all unravelled over my 27 years of drinking - luck rather than anything else and that won't last forever. In fact I know it will come crashing down if I continue.
For me the folks around me are dealing with it much more better than I imagined they would. Those that don't tend to be those that don't want to understand for whatever reason.
All the best on the journey - I'm picking it will be worth it.
I'm the same - have been lurking here for ages.
I personally drift in and out but the out is not pleasant so I have made a commitment to seriously get sober.
For me drinking is a very slippery slope and I am amazed it has not all unravelled over my 27 years of drinking - luck rather than anything else and that won't last forever. In fact I know it will come crashing down if I continue.
For me the folks around me are dealing with it much more better than I imagined they would. Those that don't tend to be those that don't want to understand for whatever reason.
All the best on the journey - I'm picking it will be worth it.
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