Last binge Finally!?
Last binge Finally!?
Hello there we'll have some fun in my recovery time, This has been a long time coming believe me!
The final straw was last weekend the final showdown the be all and end all of slips falls stumbles off the wagon that I can recall for a while.
It started with a drink with an old friend a social call a catch up a **** up a mess up a god damn 4 day bender.
It's so easy to get hold of alcohol without even leaving the house so the local shop keeper does not think your a stinky alky, Internet fast food and booze to your door so even when your mrs has all your cash bank cards credit cards etc etc you still have the tools if you still have a memory?? I knew my credit card number off by heart so it's so so easy to order a nice pizza and a bottle of vodka!!
2 litres of vodka and several bottles of wine later. Yeah 4 days later here I am all dt eed out yep the full month this time spiders flies visions shakes nightmares anxiety sweats heart palps the works.
Hence why I am here I ain't willing to embarrass myself no more! Ever! And this time it's war I got something on my side? The power to believe in myself and the medication to reset my brain to when I was Normal, yes when I was 10 yrs old, it's been a long time coming but I had to give in and get help in the form of Campral! Has anyone or is anyone on this med please advise on how it works for you? Had really bad pain on my right side since this last binge and I know I have hurt myself inside any ideas?
I'm on my 3rd day on this and feel a little better I know it's not gonna work straight away however I'm giving it a go!
Sorry for the long message but I never done this before and I got loads to say, Just come clean with family too so I am a little hyper. Happy hyper.
The final straw was last weekend the final showdown the be all and end all of slips falls stumbles off the wagon that I can recall for a while.
It started with a drink with an old friend a social call a catch up a **** up a mess up a god damn 4 day bender.
It's so easy to get hold of alcohol without even leaving the house so the local shop keeper does not think your a stinky alky, Internet fast food and booze to your door so even when your mrs has all your cash bank cards credit cards etc etc you still have the tools if you still have a memory?? I knew my credit card number off by heart so it's so so easy to order a nice pizza and a bottle of vodka!!
2 litres of vodka and several bottles of wine later. Yeah 4 days later here I am all dt eed out yep the full month this time spiders flies visions shakes nightmares anxiety sweats heart palps the works.
Hence why I am here I ain't willing to embarrass myself no more! Ever! And this time it's war I got something on my side? The power to believe in myself and the medication to reset my brain to when I was Normal, yes when I was 10 yrs old, it's been a long time coming but I had to give in and get help in the form of Campral! Has anyone or is anyone on this med please advise on how it works for you? Had really bad pain on my right side since this last binge and I know I have hurt myself inside any ideas?
I'm on my 3rd day on this and feel a little better I know it's not gonna work straight away however I'm giving it a go!
Sorry for the long message but I never done this before and I got loads to say, Just come clean with family too so I am a little hyper. Happy hyper.
I had a 3-4 day binge the last week. I seem to have em once or twice a month and everytime I'm done it takes 3 days to feel "normal" again". Today is my day 7 and I feel great! So congrats to you for taking the step and let's get er done
Wow that's a pretty awsome and quiet moving reply many thanks I'm just going to bed so tired my energy is zapped natural sleep awaits me for I shall not let this beat me for when I'm asleep there no way it can creep upon me or the dark cloud has gone and for sure I shall sing a song
Drinking different fizzy juices like elderberry and ginger, fresh fruit smoothies and hopefully will begin to repair my internal damage,Play squash again that's gonna be much more fun without the vodka seeping through my pores,And counselling so I can get some kind of answer without me trying to find it because now I know I can never drink alcohol ever again then I have no other reason but to continue my sober path and on a spiritual level I'm starting. Meditation see if I can focus on the positives and not the negs,This time is my time however any input and ideas from anyone would e fantastic.
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