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Old 01-24-2013, 06:15 PM   #1 (permalink)
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Having a huge panic attack

because I'm STILL not done cleaning the house and it's my last day to do so until my sister is here!
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Old 01-24-2013, 06:24 PM   #2 (permalink)
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Breathe. It's cleaner than mine, trust me on that. You could be on the set of "Hoarders" and it would be cleaner than mine.

It's gonna be OK if it's not perfect.
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roflmao. Now that was some seriously funny stuff LexieCat.

HereIAm321, I agree with LexieCat. Breath, calm down. You're okay. It's okay.
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Old 01-24-2013, 06:32 PM   #4 (permalink)
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I just started whimpering like a puppy for 10 min, then cried for 10 min with the shuddering gasps for breath, then SOBBED and cried out "oh mom. I'm so sorry. How could I have ever done this to myself??? Look at me, look at this house! Look at how much neglect I thought was *okay*!"

Oh GAWD. :'( :'(

What did I DO to myself with my alcoholism?

Just crying and hyperventilating and smoking a cig now.
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You stopped drinking, that's what you did. That is huge.

When did you last eat something?
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Old 01-24-2013, 06:36 PM   #6 (permalink)
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You know what.. it really don't matter, your sister is coming to see you..... right?

You are just trying to make things perfect ....and you can't ..just enjoy the time you have with her....((HUGS))

I can relate......
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Old 01-24-2013, 06:38 PM   #7 (permalink)
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You stopped drinking, that's what you did. That is huge.

When did you last eat something?
Diet has been mostly diet Pepsi and crackers and candy and coffee today. No time to eat! The wreckage of my life needs to be hauled away.

I can't BELIEVE I didn't see how much my life was crumbling around me. I can't BELIEVE I thought I was *ever* "okay." I can't BELIEVE what being sober for only one week has shown me!!! :'(
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Eating something substantial helps me a lot when I get all discombobulated. Especially when I've overdone it with the caffeine.
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god god god god

WHO WAS I???!!!!!!

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Don't worry about the wreckage of your house worry about the wreckage of your soul..Only thing that matters right now is that you and your sister connect and share a minute, put all the other stuff aside and focus on you and what you want to say to your sister. ((HUGS)))
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OK, I was trying to laugh you out of it, but I can see this is serious. YOU MUST EAT. Caffeine and candy will increase your sense of panic. Eat something with protein. Scramble an egg, make a cheese sandwich or eat some peanut butter. Either of those takes 5 minutes, max.

All the messes in your life can be cleaned up. You don't have to do it all at once.

It didn't take you a day to accumulate the messes and it will take some time to clean them up. Don't drink, and you can clean them up. You are off to a good start. You are just FINE, whether your house is clean or not. You are making your life better.

Now, again, BREATHE.
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Eat.
Your sister will be so darned happy that you are sober, she won't give a hoot about the house.
Received is correct, it will help the extreme discombobulation to eat!
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Don't worry, she is there to see you, not your house.
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I can't BELIEVE I didn't see how much my life was crumbling around me. I can't BELIEVE I thought I was *ever* "okay." (
No one ever did. Be gentle with yourself. You're moving in a different direction. The smoke coming from the bomb of our past life still wafts in our face when we start on the road to recovery. It takes time to clean up the wreckage of our past.

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Old 01-24-2013, 07:05 PM   #15 (permalink)
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It's our mom's house, and so many things should be done and they're not, and told her I quit 6 months ago but started up again obviously, doesn't know about my DUI, ahhhhhhhh
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HereIam, you need some looking-aftering. I bet that you are really good at looking after others, nuturing, encouraging, strengthening. So, see if you can learn to look after you the same way.

Be patient, kind, generous, understanding and gentle with you. That most important person, the one who called for her Ma, could use someone to look after her. I think that you are the perfect person for the job.
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Old 01-24-2013, 07:12 PM   #17 (permalink)
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So it's YOUR moms house is it not also HER moms house???

It will be OK just take a minute and breathe like Lexi said..

Go eat and just rest..let tomorrow take care of itself. The world will not end ...trust me.

It will be OK.. ((HUGS))
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Okay, I ate.

Now I have to go to my education class, which is 2 hours. Then home to pull all nighter cleaning, then tmrw taking dog to vet and boarding her, then 6 hour drive to my cousin's wedding.

I hope I don't seriously lose it.
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One foot in front of the other, sweetie. I'm glad you ate. You have been doing really well, and no matter what you are afraid your sister will think, we are proud of you.
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Oh, and try to get a little sleep. Driving for six hours after getting no sleep and hardly eating can be dangerous!
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