Having a huge panic attack - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

HereIAm321 · 01-24-2013, 06:15 PM

because I'm STILL not done cleaning the house and it's my last day to do so until my sister is here!

LexieCat · 01-24-2013, 06:24 PM

Breathe. It's cleaner than mine, trust me on that. You could be on the set of "Hoarders" and it would be cleaner than mine.

It's gonna be OK if it's not perfect.

Received · 01-24-2013, 06:28 PM

roflmao. Now that was some seriously funny stuff LexieCat.

HereIAm321, I agree with LexieCat. Breath, calm down. You're okay. It's okay.

HereIAm321 · 01-24-2013, 06:32 PM

I just started whimpering like a puppy for 10 min, then cried for 10 min with the shuddering gasps for breath, then SOBBED and cried out "oh mom. I'm so sorry. How could I have ever done this to myself??? Look at me, look at this house! Look at how much neglect I thought was *okay*!"

Oh GAWD. :'( :'(

What did I DO to myself with my alcoholism?

Just crying and hyperventilating and smoking a cig now.

Received · 01-24-2013, 06:35 PM

You stopped drinking, that's what you did. That is huge.

When did you last eat something?

exauhsted · 01-24-2013, 06:36 PM

You know what.. it really don't matter, your sister is coming to see you..... right?

You are just trying to make things perfect ....and you can't ..just enjoy the time you have with her....((HUGS))

I can relate......

HereIAm321 · 01-24-2013, 06:38 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Received

You stopped drinking, that's what you did. That is huge.

When did you last eat something?

Diet has been mostly diet Pepsi and crackers and candy and coffee today. No time to eat! The wreckage of my life needs to be hauled away.

I can't BELIEVE I didn't see how much my life was crumbling around me. I can't BELIEVE I thought I was *ever* "okay." I can't BELIEVE what being sober for only one week has shown me!!! :'(

Received · 01-24-2013, 06:43 PM

Eating something substantial helps me a lot when I get all discombobulated. Especially when I've overdone it with the caffeine.

HereIAm321 · 01-24-2013, 06:43 PM

god god god god

WHO WAS I???!!!!!!

:'(

exauhsted · 01-24-2013, 06:44 PM

Don't worry about the wreckage of your house worry about the wreckage of your soul..Only thing that matters right now is that you and your sister connect and share a minute, put all the other stuff aside and focus on you and what you want to say to your sister. ((HUGS)))

LexieCat · 01-24-2013, 06:49 PM

OK, I was trying to laugh you out of it, but I can see this is serious. YOU MUST EAT. Caffeine and candy will increase your sense of panic. Eat something with protein. Scramble an egg, make a cheese sandwich or eat some peanut butter. Either of those takes 5 minutes, max.

All the messes in your life can be cleaned up. You don't have to do it all at once.

It didn't take you a day to accumulate the messes and it will take some time to clean them up. Don't drink, and you can clean them up. You are off to a good start. You are just FINE, whether your house is clean or not. You are making your life better.

Now, again, BREATHE.

Hollyanne · 01-24-2013, 06:51 PM

Eat.
Your sister will be so darned happy that you are sober, she won't give a hoot about the house.
Received is correct, it will help the extreme discombobulation to eat!

goingtoquit · 01-24-2013, 06:56 PM

Don't worry, she is there to see you, not your house.

paul99 · 01-24-2013, 07:05 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by HereIAm321

I can't BELIEVE I didn't see how much my life was crumbling around me. I can't BELIEVE I thought I was *ever* "okay." (

No one ever did. Be gentle with yourself. You're moving in a different direction. The smoke coming from the bomb of our past life still wafts in our face when we start on the road to recovery. It takes time to clean up the wreckage of our past.

Breathe.

HereIAm321 · 01-24-2013, 07:05 PM

It's our mom's house, and so many things should be done and they're not, and told her I quit 6 months ago but started up again obviously, doesn't know about my DUI, ahhhhhhhh

freshstart57 · 01-24-2013, 07:09 PM

HereIam, you need some looking-aftering. I bet that you are really good at looking after others, nuturing, encouraging, strengthening. So, see if you can learn to look after you the same way.

Be patient, kind, generous, understanding and gentle with you. That most important person, the one who called for her Ma, could use someone to look after her. I think that you are the perfect person for the job.

exauhsted · 01-24-2013, 07:12 PM

So it's YOUR moms house is it not also HER moms house???

It will be OK just take a minute and breathe like Lexi said..

Go eat and just rest..let tomorrow take care of itself. The world will not end ...trust me.

It will be OK.. ((HUGS))

HereIAm321 · 01-24-2013, 07:34 PM

Okay, I ate.

Now I have to go to my education class, which is 2 hours. Then home to pull all nighter cleaning, then tmrw taking dog to vet and boarding her, then 6 hour drive to my cousin's wedding.

I hope I don't seriously lose it.

LexieCat · 01-24-2013, 07:52 PM

One foot in front of the other, sweetie. I'm glad you ate. You have been doing really well, and no matter what you are afraid your sister will think, we are proud of you.

LexieCat · 01-24-2013, 07:53 PM

Oh, and try to get a little sleep. Driving for six hours after getting no sleep and hardly eating can be dangerous!

01-24-2013, 06:15 PM	#1 (permalink)
HereIAm321 Member Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: San Diego, CA Posts: 392	Having a huge panic attack because I'm STILL not done cleaning the house and it's my last day to do so until my sister is here!

01-24-2013, 06:24 PM	#2 (permalink)
LexieCat A work in progress Join Date: Jul 2010 Location: South Jersey Posts: 6,408	Breathe. It's cleaner than mine, trust me on that. You could be on the set of "Hoarders" and it would be cleaner than mine. It's gonna be OK if it's not perfect. __________________ Lexie *~ one breath at a time*

01-24-2013, 06:36 PM	#6 (permalink)
exauhsted Member Join Date: Nov 2012 Location: roller coaster, AL Posts: 249	You know what.. it really don't matter, your sister is coming to see you..... right? You are just trying to make things perfect ....and you can't ..just enjoy the time you have with her....((HUGS)) I can relate...... __________________ Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow. It empties today of its strength.

01-24-2013, 06:44 PM	#10 (permalink)
exauhsted Member Join Date: Nov 2012 Location: roller coaster, AL Posts: 249	Don't worry about the wreckage of your house worry about the wreckage of your soul..Only thing that matters right now is that you and your sister connect and share a minute, put all the other stuff aside and focus on you and what you want to say to your sister. ((HUGS))) __________________ Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow. It empties today of its strength.

01-24-2013, 06:49 PM	#11 (permalink)
LexieCat A work in progress Join Date: Jul 2010 Location: South Jersey Posts: 6,408	OK, I was trying to laugh you out of it, but I can see this is serious. YOU MUST EAT. Caffeine and candy will increase your sense of panic. Eat something with protein. Scramble an egg, make a cheese sandwich or eat some peanut butter. Either of those takes 5 minutes, max. All the messes in your life can be cleaned up. You don't have to do it all at once. It didn't take you a day to accumulate the messes and it will take some time to clean them up. Don't drink, and you can clean them up. You are off to a good start. You are just FINE, whether your house is clean or not. You are making your life better. Now, again, BREATHE. __________________ Lexie *~ one breath at a time*

01-24-2013, 06:28 PM	#3 (permalink)
Received Member Join Date: Jan 2013 Posts: 586	roflmao. Now that was some seriously funny stuff LexieCat. HereIAm321, I agree with LexieCat. Breath, calm down. You're okay. It's okay.

01-24-2013, 06:32 PM	#4 (permalink)
HereIAm321 Member Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: San Diego, CA Posts: 392	I just started whimpering like a puppy for 10 min, then cried for 10 min with the shuddering gasps for breath, then SOBBED and cried out "oh mom. I'm so sorry. How could I have ever done this to myself??? Look at me, look at this house! Look at how much neglect I thought was okay!" Oh GAWD. :'( :'( What did I DO to myself with my alcoholism? Just crying and hyperventilating and smoking a cig now.

01-24-2013, 06:35 PM	#5 (permalink)
Received Member Join Date: Jan 2013 Posts: 586	You stopped drinking, that's what you did. That is huge. When did you last eat something?

01-24-2013, 06:43 PM	#8 (permalink)
Received Member Join Date: Jan 2013 Posts: 586	Eating something substantial helps me a lot when I get all discombobulated. Especially when I've overdone it with the caffeine.

01-24-2013, 06:43 PM	#9 (permalink)
HereIAm321 Member Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: San Diego, CA Posts: 392	god god god god WHO WAS I???!!!!!! :'(

01-24-2013, 06:51 PM	#12 (permalink)
Hollyanne Member Join Date: Sep 2010 Location: Ireland Posts: 1,347	Eat. Your sister will be so darned happy that you are sober, she won't give a hoot about the house. Received is correct, it will help the extreme discombobulation to eat!

01-24-2013, 06:56 PM	#13 (permalink)
goingtoquit Member Join Date: Jan 2013 Posts: 34	Don't worry, she is there to see you, not your house.

01-24-2013, 07:05 PM	#15 (permalink)
HereIAm321 Member Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: San Diego, CA Posts: 392	It's our mom's house, and so many things should be done and they're not, and told her I quit 6 months ago but started up again obviously, doesn't know about my DUI, ahhhhhhhh

01-24-2013, 07:09 PM	#16 (permalink)
freshstart57 Self recovered Self discovered Join Date: Aug 2011 Location: Toronto Canada Posts: 2,661	HereIam, you need some looking-aftering. I bet that you are really good at looking after others, nuturing, encouraging, strengthening. So, see if you can learn to look after you the same way. Be patient, kind, generous, understanding and gentle with you. That most important person, the one who called for her Ma, could use someone to look after her. I think that you are the perfect person for the job. __________________ AVRT has shown me how to never drink again and to never change my mind.

01-24-2013, 07:12 PM	#17 (permalink)
exauhsted Member Join Date: Nov 2012 Location: roller coaster, AL Posts: 249	So it's YOUR moms house is it not also HER moms house??? It will be OK just take a minute and breathe like Lexi said.. Go eat and just rest..let tomorrow take care of itself. The world will not end ...trust me. It will be OK.. ((HUGS)) __________________ Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow. It empties today of its strength.

01-24-2013, 07:34 PM	#18 (permalink)
HereIAm321 Member Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: San Diego, CA Posts: 392	Okay, I ate. Now I have to go to my education class, which is 2 hours. Then home to pull all nighter cleaning, then tmrw taking dog to vet and boarding her, then 6 hour drive to my cousin's wedding. I hope I don't seriously lose it.

01-24-2013, 07:52 PM	#19 (permalink)
LexieCat A work in progress Join Date: Jul 2010 Location: South Jersey Posts: 6,408	One foot in front of the other, sweetie. I'm glad you ate. You have been doing really well, and no matter what you are afraid your sister will think, we are proud of you. __________________ Lexie *~ one breath at a time*

01-24-2013, 07:53 PM	#20 (permalink)
LexieCat A work in progress Join Date: Jul 2010 Location: South Jersey Posts: 6,408	Oh, and try to get a little sleep. Driving for six hours after getting no sleep and hardly eating can be dangerous! __________________ Lexie *~ one breath at a time*

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