Just saying hi to everyone with my first post. Actually signed up a while a while ago so I could do some searches. My disease is?? who knows, all I know is the main symptom is alcoholism. 5 and half years years in AA with one early minor relapse (two beers after a few months), and one big relapse (just one day but a liter of vodka) 4 months ago, alot of resentments including AA related ones and life stressors. Still going to meetings, not my old ones,just not connecting with AA anymore but not drinkin either. Wow !! 3 million posts. I have found some useful posts that do the lightbulb on thing in previous posts. Anyway Idon't want write 164 pages. Seems like a really nice group of people and well run forum.