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|01-04-2013, 12:24 PM||#1 (permalink)|
Join Date: Oct 2011
Location: east coast
"Firsts" without drinking
I put on the jazz music channel before and realized it is the first time I have done so while being sober. I used to enjoy it while drinking my wine. It is soothing and makes me feel like I am surrounded by people at a classy party lol This time, I get to enjoy it more because I won't drink to black out, eventually turn it off and get into some kind of trouble--drunk dialing, drunk emailing, pondering why I have to life in this miserable world. It's so interesting how I am coming to see things in a new way without a drink. I sit here and think of how I miss the feeling alcohol gave to me in the first 30 minutes of drinking it. Now that I have clarity I see that those 30 minutes were never really worth it. The consequences I now suffer from my last relapse are concrete but not life threatening. I have been given another chance and for that I am grateful. Today, I feel homesick for a future that hasn't revealed itself to me in any way as of yet. Falling in love, creating a cozy home, perhaps starting a family, making great memories. When I was drinking I led myself to believe I didn't WANT any of these things but inside I knew I COULDN'T have them if I continue on my isolated path. In these 24 hours, I am hopeful for my life because I am sober. I look forward to experiencing many more "firsts". This is a simple, quiet day but a good one
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|01-04-2013, 12:29 PM||#2 (permalink)|
Join Date: May 2011
Blog Entries: 5
I agree I love to dream and fantasize but I have to live in the real world today and make the most of it
Good luck, have a great day
Let everyone be my teacher and RTFD
May 15 2011
|01-04-2013, 01:19 PM||#4 (permalink)|
Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: San Diego
Simple and quiet sounds nice. Mine is filled with three loud and crazy kiddos, but I wouldn't trade it (well, maybe for an hour or so! )
Enjoy your day Quit!!!!
“It is good to have an end to journey toward; but it is the journey that matters, in the end.”
― Ernest Hemingway
|01-04-2013, 04:02 PM||#6 (permalink)|
Join Date: Oct 2011
“That’s the problem with drinking, If something bad happens you drink in an attempt to forget; if something good happens you drink in order to celebrate; and if nothing happens you drink to make something happen.”
—Charles Bukowski, Women
|01-04-2013, 04:17 PM||#7 (permalink)|
Join Date: Oct 2012
Thanks for this post. It reminds me of something i said in therapy that my therapist thought was important enough to write down on one of his cards for me to carry around.
It is "I don't think I can improve myself the way I want to if I am drinking".
It was hard to say that, and even harder to actually realize that its true with every part of my being, but I think it is true.
|01-04-2013, 04:27 PM||#8 (permalink)|
Join Date: Dec 2011
I love this part:
Today, I feel homesick for a future that hasn't revealed itself to me in any way as of yet.
I really relate to this! I have to be careful of not overthinking what "could have been" had I been in better shape the last ten years. Today is a new day.
The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I can change. -Carl Rogers
|01-04-2013, 07:09 PM||#10 (permalink)|
stepping on my way...
Join Date: Jan 2012
Thanks for this post, misterritter
I know I can never be where I am spiritually, physically, emotionally and mentally at this point in my life with alcohol in the picture. I am liking me nowadays. I am blessed to have finally realized that and the fact that I have to work my a&& off for sobriety. Making sobriety my number one priority is the ONLY way I will stay sober. I thank God daily for AA, for me personally.
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