Pacoloco

Wow HC that's nice, I hour meditation!

I have a hard time meditating, I don't know how to do it, I get anxious and stop within a few minutes. Can't stop my thoughts, tried hard before, I used to do yoga and all. Is there a specific technique you use these days?

It's a hard Friday but won't smoke. Thanks HC, take care and congrats on the meditation and sobriety, it's just awesome.

happycampers

I've been meditating for some time - it's like exercise - you get better with practise. I am using a device called MUSE - it is a brainwave wearable headset that gives you immediate feedback on how you are doing. I am trying to do at least an hour a day fr the next hundred days - on day 8 now. I've avg. close to an hour a day for the past month. I find it really helps me stay calm in the midst of my everyday life things. I can stand in the "stillness" when **** is happening and respond instead of react out of old patterns. My spiritual life is the driving reason for me wanting to remain "clean and sober" . I stay in my healthy routines then and build momentum that way instead of shooting myself in the foot by smoking pot and falling off again , losing all my momentum. I'm very happy to be off the rollercoaster ! No more high, low - just steady as she goes now ! Much more enjoyable !

Pacoloco

Very nice, HC. Congrats.

Day 6 almost over.

Pacoloco

Day 7 here. Yesterday I was around pot again, and said no again. I know it's risky, but this time it was not friends, it was family. And I can't let go seeing my baby godson, he grows so fast. I played with him, it was nice, I stayed sober, did not drink any beers or smoke. It was hard at the beggining, but as I am very comitted, I put my head in the right place and everything went fine.

I attended 2 online meetings on MA, I found it was helpful.

Feeling ok, dieting, walking the dogs, and today I began studying which is the hardest. Having some mood swings, crying sometimes, I'm freaking out with all the things I have to study, I'm a little in trouble to be honest. But if I was not sober I would be in much more trouble, isn't that true.

I finally hit the spot where I am confortable with the "never again" idea. Thank God for that. I can work my sobriety at peace now. One day at a time.

thanks friends, wish you all a nice Sunday

Pacoloco

Week 1 done.

Not too easy, not too hard.

Day 8.

Have a nice sober week everyone.

Lorax1981

Good work, keep truckin' Pac!

Pacoloco

Day 10.

Life is easier when I'm sober.

What a relief.

Incontrol15

Excellent work!

Regarding meditation...
I found youtube to be a great resource. Tons of self guided meditation as well as sleep hypnosis audio.

Several for addiction, anxiety, depression, confidence, what ever your looking for.

Rock on.

happycampers

Isn't that SO true, Paco !!! Makes you wonder why we feel so pulled to make our lives so much more difficult and unsatisfing by using - can you say ADDICTION ! Great to see us kicking it to the curb for good and regaining our joy for Life again, my friend.

Pacoloco

Thanks, In Control! I will look in youtube and find something that fits me.


So true, HC

Life feels lighter without having to carry the weight of weed.
Weed makes everything heavier and harder.

I found that it actually increases my stress levels.
Because it decreases my ability to deal with things.
With less ability to function, the stress is higher, have to make great effort to do simple tasks.

Sober it is just easier. I just sit and do the stuff I have to do.

Day 11

Dee74

good going Paco

Incontrol15

Yes Paco. Me too. I was really bad at letting pressing issues just sit unattended. Serious issues too that caused debilitating anxiety and stress.

I was amazed at the difference after some sobriety. Its cool for you to recognize and appreciate it.

Rock on.

Windytown4

I agree with this 100%. In my younger years when I had less responsibility, it was fine to be high and do nothing all day. BUt now that I have to actually get stuff done in a day, when I am high I spend half the day trying to get functional enough just to do anything at all, so being sober makes stuff a lot easier.

Pacoloco

2 weeks done.

Day 15.

I got a cold, I'm not 100%, but have to study hard everyday for the next 3 weeks. Not going to be easy. If I wasn't sober I would be in a big trouble. I'm so glad I'm sober and clean. It's a better life. I don't miss anything.

Have a nice day everyone and thanks for everything.

Windytown4

great job on two weeks! Keep it up!

Dee74

Best wishes on the study and way to go on 2 weeks Paco

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happycampers

awesome , job, Paco !!!

Lorax1981

When the goin' gets tough the tough get goin'! And you're obviously tough! Nice job and good luck with studies!

Pacoloco

Thanks, friends. Yeah I feel a little badass I admit. lol

Day 16 and I'm not even craving.

In fact, I discovered yesterday that I will have to study hard for the next 5 weeks, not 3. But this is actually good news, because stress levels will be a little lower, as I will have more time.

It reminds me of a phrase I read: "When I don't smoke weed, good things happen".

After these 5 weeks I will have to be very vigilant. My sneaky mind will begin to tell me I deserve to relax a bit and all that bull crap. But I'm prepared for that. I'm not going to fall for it. No way.

racingthoughts

Sounds like you're doing great. You're well on your way to having this crap out of your system.

It's good you recognize the need to retain vigilance. It's all too easy to think we have this thing beat only to have it sneak up on us again. And yes, when we've used weed as a reward for years our brains will still want it as our reward for a while to come.

Keep up the good work!