Jeni26

It's 2.30 and I'm awake and panicked after another night terror. I used to have these all the time in early sobriety and now they are returning. This is the third in 2 weeks. I cannot go back to this again. It is more than I can bear. I would rather go back to drinking.

heath480

Sorry to hear that Jeni.

Might be a good idea to see your GP? Have you got things worrying you?

I haven't even tried to sleep yet tonight!

Jeni26

Ooh it's late for you too! No, nothing worrying me. I spent the day with my parents and siblings and it was ok...but I come away uneasy and then my mind wanders in the night.

I don't want to go back to meds. I went to the GP a while ago who wouldn't prescribe anything for insomnia but wanted to out me back on antidepressants.

I make such progress... But then I go back to square 1. I despair of myself.

SouthernBe11e

It's midnight here in Texas and I feel wide awake. I have to be up and ready to go to work in 5 hours. This is such a battle. I hardly ever get a good night's sleep anymore.

Lenina

((((((jeni))))) breathe. Can you take a nice, warm bath? light some scented candles? If you don't have scented candles, get some next time you're out and about. It will be OK. You don't have to drink any more. That time is passed. Be here now. you are loved.

love from Lenina

Dee74

This is not true and you know it

I know counseling didn't work out for you, but I hope you can find some way to lay these ghosts - cos thats what they are...ghosts

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yeahgr8

I really think you should go back to your GP and look to get on meds in the short term if that is what they suggest.

Jeni26

Thank you all for being so kind to me. I did go back to sleep. Now it's the morning, and I feel so cross with myself...why can't I move on from this?

I've got such a good life now...but I seemed chained to the past and I can't get free of it no matter what I do.

I don't know what the answer is. I've been to counselling. I've been on antidepressants. I meditate and pray.

But today is a new day, and I will try not to let 'the dark' stay with me and creep back into my life.

Sorry for this.