lizzerz79

I know what's in meetings is supposed to stay in meetings but I just have to get this out. It's really bothering me and I'm not naming names here nor do I really know anyone so I think I am maintaining everyone's anonymity. Okay the relapse was not me but this person in my group that has been clean for a long time. I can't remember the exact number of years now but it's been at least several I'm thinking more along the lines of 10 +. He came in last night and got a white key tag and reastablished his clean date. I can't believe it. I'm in shock. I was the chair person and I passed out the key tags so I was the one to give em the white key tag. I gave em the biggest hug and told him I was glad he was back. I hope he keeps coming back. I really like him, he is my favorite person in the group. I can't stop thinking about it. I guess it goes to show you that no matter how much clean time you have you are still vulnerable to relapse if not working the program.

Luckyv2

Yeah I know that for a fact afew months back someone came into a meeting that I had not seen for awhile and not mentioning any name this guy had 20 years of sobriety and announced that he was a newcomer and the only thing that he could say was pitiful incomprehentionalbe(sp) demorilazation. He said he was doing everything that he was suppose to but like my sponsor of 30 years says this thing will never leave us. My disease is out in the parking lot doing pushups waiting for me

slic64

This tells me to be good to my sponsees, because they may be my sponsor one day.

Paulie

YEP! and be thankful for him for coming back and showing you that.

Luckyv2

I am so thankful that we have today, and sometimes that we loose sight that God only gives us today and it is up to us what we do with this day. The more that we can make something good out of the day, the better chance that we will have a tomorrow to make a choice again. I want to thank you again for sharing this and helping me to remember that this is a cunning, baffeling, powerful disease that will catch us when we are not expecting it. Vic

nutz

I relapsed after 11 years of being clean and sober.
Progressive and incurable has a deep meaning to me.
It's is no longer an urban myth.
I'm forever greatful for SR and recoverying alcoholics/addicts
everywhere that reached out to me in my time needs.
You all saved my life.

Thank god I'm still alive
I will have 10 months again.
It's been a humbling experince and great growth for me.

Yeap, my sponee saved my ass. He caught me fcuked up.

Yes...I use to say I would never relapse, also.
But after I did...will you know, I wasn't sure about recovery stuff.

Life is different today.
A lot of changes.
I'm differnent.
I'm happy!

I use to think my relapes was such a waste,
and nothing good can come of it.
As always..I'm wrong or don't know as much as I think I do.lol
However I worked really hard on my program.
Talk about vigeriouse.lol
I don't encourage anyone to go out and relapes.
But a relapes after a decade is a part of mine.

I'm currently reading "the power of the NOW"
Mmmmmmm.....oneday at a time and a daily reprived.lol

God bless

namommy

Those kind of stories scare the sh*t out of me.

This disease ain't no joke. My disease is with me 24/7 just looking for the right opportunity. Waiting for that weak moment. That is why I do everything I can to stay on top of my recovery. Even if it means feeling like I am whining alot. That's what I need to do.

KelKel

A great reminder for me not to be complacent...

Paulie

Thanks for sharing that and I am glad you made it back!!!