Luckyv2

Just want to end it all

historyteach

What's happening, Vic?
Talk to us; We're here; we care!!!
Don't do anything rash.....talk to us.....
Shalom, friend....

tyler

Hey man, I've been there before, not worth it. Call someone, and if you have to go to the hospital, they can help you. I had to do that before, once I went on my own accord and the second time was against my will, but I am still here and glad for their help now, though I wasn't really at the time. As they say it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Talk to us!! You can get through whatever you are going through.

hja1407

vic,
Hey man!!! I know that it is hard, but life is worth living. It may suck at times, but it is an ever changing situation. You never know what can happen next. Just think about things like that before you do anything.
Heather

historyteach

You're right, Tyler!
There's lots of help available.
Please just reach for it, Vic...

Here's a link to the Samaritans.
http://www.muw.org/samaritans/

It's a suicide hotline. Use it, Vic. Please reach out... Many, many people want you around!
Shalom!

Anna

Hang on Vic and try to get help. I am sending lots of prayers out for you. I'm here if you want to talk.

Love, Anna

Fire_Wind_Rain

You need to get your butt on the phone to your sponsor or anyone who can come physically sit with you until this feeling passes. My other suggestion would be to put on a pair of sneakers, a running outfit, and go run. Run and run and run until you can't run anymore. Then go home, get on your knees, and thank your higher power for the gift of your life that has been given to you over and over and over again when it could of been taken from you in a snuff without your consent. Then if possible, go down to your local AA central and hang out on the 24 hour phone lines giving back to the community. Or spend time on this board giving all the positive feedback to others who might be hurting worse than you. You must get out of the bondage of yourself right now until the feeling goes away. Suicide is simply put, a selfish act. If you can try to get out of yourself, you just might make it the next 24 hours. But it takes action on your part. I find when I am most self pitying, I need to pull out the most humility. There is always someone somewhere who has it worse than me, not by their own doing or self destruction, and it put me back where I need to be. A few weeks a go I had a bizarre want to take every pill I had in the house because I got so freakishly fed up and overwhelmed with worry over finances, my husband, myself, my kids, etc.. Then I thought, "My god you are a selfish hog Shannon!" And I went and cleaned up dog poop to make myself feel a little less dignified, and went in and thanked the Goddess for giving me just 5 more minutes to regain some clarity. Then I sat down and wrote out exactly what was life threatening to me, figured out where my responsibility was in all of it, cleaned my side of the street, and the feeling passed.

I'd love to say good luck, but in a situation like this, it's not luck that will save you, it will be for you to take immediate action and footwork on your own with loving support. Please check back in.

BikerBill8

Hey Vic, do what everyone has said call your sponcer get to a meeting don't give up on yourself.

michski

This is called reaching a "bottom" Incomprehensible demoralization! I've been there too..... along with a whole bunch of us here at SR... It sucks.

Please give change another chance to happen in your life... Sounds like you've got no where else to go but UP!

splendra

(((Lucky)))

Your post is alarming! Please do be gentle with yourself Vic we love you!!

historyteach

Still want to hear from ya, Vic....
Let us know how you are, OK?
We ARE here for you....Please know that...
And Shalom!

Chy

((((Vic))))

2dayzmuse

(((Vic)))

Hang on...this to shall pass.

In memory of miracle

Hey Vic? Prayers to you...

Gooch

Hey Vic.

It's not that I really ever wanted to end it all. I just freakin didn't want to keep trudging along when it seemed like I was the only one butt deep in sludge.

I gurantee you the hands on the clock come back around. It says in that Basic Text that "we regain the capacity to experinece a full range of human emotions" ugh! never mind teh full range I just wanted to pick and choose from the "up" emotions.. ya know ..

Stick and stay. Don't freakin use no matter what. If it gets too bad throw a rock through a window and get yourself 3 hots and a cot until; you get through the horrible feelings. Remember what Todd said? The 90 day chip isn't blood red for no reason.

C'mon man you can do this thing with us.

historyteach

(((Vic)))
Glad you made it to the meeting!
Great topic; one day at a time.
I sure hop it helped you chairing that; I've always found helping others helped me the most! Funny, isn't it?
Now, wanna talk about whatever the problem was?? Just know, we really do care, and you had a lot of us pretty scared.
I am so thrilled you're here right now!
Shalom!

HPierce

vic love ya buddy!!! KCB

historyteach

WTFE!!!
KCB is right, Buddy!
Shalom!

Luckyv2

thanks everyone I just don't know who to reach out too I feel so alone sometimes and In the town I live in some of the meeting if you say that you want to use they say go use your not done. well excuse again. I am better now I am going to call a hot-line now thanks

BikerBill8

Vic, You are doing the right thing. Keep doing ehat your doing.