least

I found this article in the Washington Post about a lady who tells the truth about her sister's suicide. She put the truth in the obituary she wrote for her sister, so that "others can choose to live" instead of suffering from depression.

I've had depression most of my adult life and was troubled by suicidal thoughts often, at my worst, and like the author's sister, I couldn't see any way out, any good in me.

I hope this helps. It makes me grateful for every minute of life I have.

https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/...src=nl_evening

Bailey3

Least, you seem to be a very kind and caring person now. I always look forward to reading your posts! And yes depression does suck.

Fabela

Depression is a horrible, horrible disease. It literally sucks the life out of you. I was convinced that the world would be a better place without me, that my children and husband deserved someone better in their lives. Oh, how wrong I was, and I am so grateful that I no longer feel that way. In the world I'm just someone, but to somebody I am the world.

Soberwolf

Thank you for this Least

talldude

Thank you for posting that very touching letter about the devastating effects of depression.

Astro

Thank you for posting this, least.

I struggled with suicidal ideations for a few years but never thought about what the after-effects would be. Articles like this put my selfish thoughts into perspective.

yankeesfan02

Thanks for the posting.
I'm struggling now with those feelings of worthlessness. My depression and worry are self consuming. It's a struggle to do anything even the slightest bit productive. I'd be lying if I said I never had suicidal thoughts. I'm also dealing with the legal issues of a 2nd dui and there's so much uncertainty around it like possible losing my job (not related to the dui), relationship problems and the potential of not being able to find a job as I won't be able to get there. It seems any uplifting advice or words helps while I'm reading them but that's it. I try repeating positive things to myself, but maybe I just don't believe them. Looking for clarity in my life. It's going to be a very long road. I starting seeing a therapist. Hoping it'll help.

Astro

YF02, what my experience taught me is that we are all loved and have a purpose in life. When we get through the wreckage of our past in recovery, then we work on fulfilling that purpose.

Stick around for the rollercoaster ride. I never want to get off!

yankeesfan02

I have to go to court in an hour and my mind is a pinball machine. The anxiety and worry is crippling. This is one step towards stabilizing my life. Dealing with depression and anxiety is horrible though. Just rambling.....sorry.

Opivotal

I'm glad you posted yankeesfan.

Dealing with court can be nerve wracking. Try and take some deep breaths and know we're with you in spirit.

least

Breathe. We are with you.

yankeesfan02

Well.... Court was cancelled. Postponed till next Monday. Emotionally exhausted. Thank you for all of your support.

Dee74

Sorry you have to wait another week Yankeesfan.

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Opivotal

Try and get some rest, yankeesfan.

I hope you'll post here during the next week.

Sometimes putting our fears "out there" makes them not so scary.

Bekindalways

Hang tough Yankeesfan02. Just keep breathing and taking the next right action. I hope the therapist helps.

Meds and exercise have been the most useful for me but we are all different.

yankeesfan02

Found out today I'll be losing my job in 2 months. Tough to keep the chin up. Depression is over the top. Letting my family down is something I can't take.

Bekindalways

Okay YF02, just keep breathing and circle every support ya got. You can do this.

Keep posting.

least

I'm sorry about your job. I hope you can find another one soon.

Astro

A lot can happen in two months, I'm praying that there's a better job waiting for you on the other side of this!

Opivotal

Astro is right... lots can happen in two months!

One day at a time, yankeesfan.

I hope today is better for you.