greenteababe

i didn't like ppl using addiction as a way to smear me for unrelated issues but

my life in the past year has become almost unmanageable and idk if i can do it on my own or without the help of a support group now.

it's really hard to admit to being an addict for some reason. it doesn't feel real. it feels like all my enemies won or something. idk what i'm fighting against even

Soberwolf

Yourself perhaps ? it's a lot easier for me to accept my alcoholism & drug abuse than trying to pretend I'm not

Having support is so vital imo

Bekindalways

I hope you can find the support you need GTB. Come what may, keep posting here.

dox

Denial keeps us from finding a solution to the problem because we can't accept that there is a problem.
Secrecy keeps us from finding a solution because we are on our own.
I couldn't tackle my problems on my own because I wasn't aware of the problems.
I only knew that I couldn't stop drinking.

greenteababe,
You might want to join a support group now.
If you do, there will be no more need for secrecy.
At least within the group, you may be able to be more open.

Posting on SR is a small step away from your denial.
Walking through the door of a support group will be a another step away from denial and towards acceptance.
Listening to others and identifying with what they say will be a huge blow to your denial.

Eventually, if you keep working at it, denial will be replaced by acceptance and you will have a real chance at recovery.

That was my experience.

I couldn't quit on my own.

Thankfully there is no shortage of support groups out there.
I would encourage you to find one that you can stick with.

In my experience, that makes all the difference.

greenteababe

thx everyone !