codepen

I am wondering when I was searching for my drug of choice I had a hard time finding connections and now that I am in recovery people with pills continue to show up in my life. I don't know if I need to wait to be stronger to have friendships with those that actually have prescriptions that they say are used as directed because I am not one to be able to do that, any suggestions? I feel like I have to x most people out of my life because of my addiction and IDK how to deal with this properly. Only have friends in recovery? I would like to be able to be friends and not pass judgement. Being judgmental is one of my character defects I am trying to work on even though that has somehow has kept me safe. Also, my boundaries I am working on as well so who knows?

finaltime

hmmm.I don't really now what to say, but I can just say from my experience. I am also a X pill popper, have 5 months clean. I have also had some run ins with my friends that have pills. Some of them know I am in recovery, others do not. I even had an aquaintance at work ask if I wanted a pill. I had another coworker who I got something from her locker and she had pills in there. What I have had to realize is taking ONE pill is NOT an option. I can not control what other people do, or have. I have to work, and I work with partiers etc. My mother will always have pills, I can not stay away from her house. SO< what I do is just think it is not me anymore. I cant take pills. I can't think about them etc. Yes, I do of course, but it gets easier and easier by the day. After I said no to the guy at work who offered me, and I did not decide to sneak a pill from the other coworker, I felt super proud. Life will go on, we will encounter pills, unfortunately. They are not like crack, where you have to cook it lol. I say, stay strong. If those people are pushing them on you and not respecting you, let them go...

liv1ce

Oxy user here and I am surrounded by it. I find that each time I turn away I get stronger and am tempted not at all. I made a decision that I am NOT doing this anymore so when I comes up I don't have to even think about it. The decision is already made. No thank you!

I also was in a house - alone - with a new bottle of 250 oxy 30's and a new bottle of morphine tablets. I could have taken at least 100 of each and no one would have noticed. I gained so much strength from that one I had to buy new shirts.

Enigmatic

I know what you mean. I swear when I have some clean time and doing great, pills just seem to appear everywhere. A few months ago I had my phone number changed. My real friends supported my recovery, but I had to cut out other people altogether. I'm sure anyone who really cares about you will support you.

juliea

i totally can relate to you. but the only advice i can give you, is in early recovery, you have to focus on yourself and do whats best for you. stay away from as many users as possible. i know its tough, I've had to say goodbye to many friends in the past 2 weeks.

codepen

Good job!

codepen

I have found that when I say I am going to a meeting, which has been as much as possible those that I was worried about no longer wonder where I stand. I have also preplanned if any conversation comes up about it and a person doesn't know where I am at about it all, I just say I'm in recovery or I can quickly excuse myself. Thanks HP and you all.

Ollie909

If you are trying to quit and you express that and they still call with offers, that is someone you need to x off your people I know list. Many folks are just greedy assholes. It's not hard to x them either.Just do not have further association. Period.

Emma18

My brother still uses drugs and I'm trying to get clean. He lives in the same house as well, which isn't easy and I know where he keeps everything.

finaltime

liv1ice, HOLY SMOKES< I commend you for not breaking your sobriety when you were in a house with those pills. WOW. I can not even imagine seeing 100 of the 30's. That shows your true character, and how determined you are to staying clean. I am amazed at your will power. I would have to keep telling myself that when those few I took or 100 or whatever ran out, would I really not want more? NOPE> just like right now I am on a juice detox, going on the end of day 4 right now with not any food, just juice. I am so hungry right now and bored, but really if eat a meal will I really not want another meal tomorrow? I promised myself 10 days, and I will do it. I am so surprised and happy with this new found determination I have now that I am clean. Every day gets a little bit better. Good work man.

larrylive

Before I smoked crack I didn't know anybody else that did, although I hung with a crowd of deadheads. Nor did I know of anybody that took pills, as prescribed or not. Mainly because the people in my life were not thought-centered on drugs. Now that I am in recovery it seems nearly everybody, also in recovery, is on some sort of pain or psych med. Not me, don't need it, don't want it. I am working very hard at distancing myself from people "in recovery" who still focus there lives and thoughts on drugs. I won't peek in your medicine cabinet, so please don't tell me about all the groovy meds you take.
It sure seems that soceity has fallen apart while I was "out-there", I can only hope there are a couple of normies left for me to befriend.

Be well,
Larry