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I have been posting in the family & friends sections - but I have realized maybe this is the home for me as well. After all the denial left.
I went into recovery for the first time when I was 20. I was a heavy closet drinker - a few years before that I had put down the habit of huffing.
I was clean until my early 30's when after the death of my daughter, I started drinking again. I cleaned up again that was about 3 years ago about the time I started my up and down roller coaster life with AB.
Before he ever moved in -I made it clear no drugs or alcohol. Needless to say he was an oxy and Xanax user. For two years I kept myself clean.
Then I began using. My EXCUSE cause it made it easier to deal with his using.
2 months ago AB went thru the withdrawals from heavy everyday use of pills- and had moved to pot and weekend use of the oxys. This week he started using every day again.
I realized, I guess a better word is accepted, that my sobriety had been compromised. I had to stop again.
Although it has been a week since my own use, 5/7/2011 is the day I put myself first again.
Thankfully I don't have the withdrawals to go thru
I went into recovery for the first time when I was 20. I was a heavy closet drinker - a few years before that I had put down the habit of huffing.
I was clean until my early 30's when after the death of my daughter, I started drinking again. I cleaned up again that was about 3 years ago about the time I started my up and down roller coaster life with AB.
Before he ever moved in -I made it clear no drugs or alcohol. Needless to say he was an oxy and Xanax user. For two years I kept myself clean.
Then I began using. My EXCUSE cause it made it easier to deal with his using.
2 months ago AB went thru the withdrawals from heavy everyday use of pills- and had moved to pot and weekend use of the oxys. This week he started using every day again.
I realized, I guess a better word is accepted, that my sobriety had been compromised. I had to stop again.
Although it has been a week since my own use, 5/7/2011 is the day I put myself first again.
Thankfully I don't have the withdrawals to go thru
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Welcome. I find the Substance Abuse section to be the most helpful for my addiction. I'm sure you will find it helpful to you as well.
Sounds like a tough situation with your AB, but you're right on the ball with verbalizing the fact that you are now putting yourself first.
Sounds like a tough situation with your AB, but you're right on the ball with verbalizing the fact that you are now putting yourself first.
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Location: Chicago, IL
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Welcome to this side 
I have found these forums to be very helpful and supportive in my recovery as well. Glad that you are here with us! Congrats on your week Sounds like you have a great attitude - putting yourself first Sounds like you are in a very complicated possibly toxic situation with your ab, I hope you can figure things out, best wishes to you. Looking forward to hearing more from you...
-Jess
I have found these forums to be very helpful and supportive in my recovery as well. Glad that you are here with us! Congrats on your week Sounds like you have a great attitude - putting yourself first Sounds like you are in a very complicated possibly toxic situation with your ab, I hope you can figure things out, best wishes to you. Looking forward to hearing more from you...-Jess
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