Live

OMG, I wish they wouldn't have scre*ed around with my meds.

I am getting more and more agitated by the minute. I have this anger just burbling up blindly.

I am very seriously thinking about taking some depakote that I have hanging around from some months ago.
I don't like it as a med of choice.
But I need something to bring me down.

I just went to the ER last Saturday and if I don't do something I am likely to be in there again.

I need an ativan!

GRRRRROWL!

Live

okay...I am quitting the zyprexa and taking the damned depabloat as a stop gap measure until I see the new Dr Nov 3d

chicory

(((((((Live))))))

Zencat

Sending positive vibes your way. I hope things improve for you soon.

Live

****.

I went back inpatient for 3 days because even the depakote wouldn't do it.

I just got out this afternoon and I am more disgusted than ever.

I asked them...what do I have to do?..fly back to Florida to see my pdoc or buy drugs off the street?
Yeah, I do have a bad attitude at the moment..but I am totally tired of having my entire well being jerked around unneccessarily. It is enough to deal with the things I can't do anything about but then having my hands tied and miserable over stuff that is treatable..that is a horse of a different color.

loveon2legs

Ah Live (((Big Hugs)) I'm so sorry you are going threw this BS...I feel for you hun.....is a shame...shame on those doctors...what is wrong with them???

dollydo

I hope that you feel better soon. Such a battle that you have to fight everyday, I hope that you can get your meds back in order.

Hugs,

Live

LOL, thanks for the support friends, it really means alot.

I entertained a couple of thoughts about bombing the mental health center.

Fantasies can be a harmless letting off of steam, you won't be reading about me in the newspaper.
I am just so angry.

Babyblue

Hang in there live. I know the feeling. I felt like I was a chemistry lab as the docs tinkered with my meds. Its no fun.

Live

Apparently I have difficulty communicating lately with these new care providers so last night, still utterly frustrated I wrote it out.

I have an appmt Monday (tomorrow) with a new counselor and Wed with the new Dr.

crossing my fingers.

I am ready to say "Yes, I am drug seeking. It takes medications to treat bipolar I and many people rebel and I am over that." LOL

Babyblue

It is about finding the right doctor. At least it was for me. I was put on all kinds of horrid things. One even caused me to lose my gall bladder. Finally found a doc who really knew the subtlties of medications and he put me on Geodon for a while. It doesn't have gnarly side effects and for a while I'd take it when I did have some out of control things. Eventually I got off all meds Until recently.. now I'm just on Wellbutrin and ativan when needed.

Keep advocating for yourself. Hopefully you'll find the right physician.