Paulos

Hi all again, how are you. How am I? Heh. I'm feeling fearful and insecure today which I am... it's a terrible feeling really, to be purely honest I wish it would just go away... I wish I felt smart and great like I once did... before I started drinking life was way simpler and easier, way more fun and I thought I was great at what I did. Jeez, everything is just way too overwhelming for me lately, and either irritating or tough for me... I hope this isn't how it's always gonna STAY.

historyteach

(((Paulos)))

I'm sorry you're feeling so down.
Each day is a new day. Try to do something good for yourself each and every day, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
It can get better. But, we all have to do our parts at helping it get better.

Shalom!

StayinAlive

It gets better, with each sober day your confidence will return and build to greater heights as you realize your personal growth. Its not easy to see but its happening

hang in there and keep working at it

Paulos

thanks =)... my new medication dosage is kind of giving me a bad reaction right now, heart palpitations, dizzy, weak...

historyteach

Please be sure to report those side effects to your doctor as soon as possible, Paulos. That's nothing to fool around with. OK?

Shalom!

Paulos

Feeling better now but I hate being on this Risperdalt ... I can't ever win, I'll never be better I just have a feeling I'm never going to feel any relief.

Paulos

It's just also my compatibilities... my temper... my ability to learn, my concentration, everything is so OFF... my ocd is going crazy in thinking I'm dumb and stupid I just don't know how much longer I can take of feeling so low.

Photonic

Hey Paulos;

Firstly, I would like to say that I am terribly sorry that you are having so much trouble. I speak to you on almost a daily basis and know you are struggling. Secondly, the recovery process is hard, and it is harder for some than others. I am sure that if you hang in there, and follow you doctor's advice you will see improvement. Just keep your eye on the ball and don't drink and you are way ahead of the game. Lastly, if you don't think you are ever going to get better that just makes it harder. It can be difficult to see the good when you feel so bad, but the good is there. The feeling better will come, it just takes patience and a litltle work.

I wish all the best for you and hope you are feeling better soon.

barb dwyer

hey Paulos!

Just a reminder - I ain't 'yer mama, but I can't let it go unsaid either -
remember to keep your potassium levels up and drink plenty of water when changing meds... a little drug-induced dehydration reminder for ME happened this week - just passing it on, hon!
I got all shaky and light headed myself.
Turned out it might have been side effect of the med.
Drank water, and ate potassium food (oranges)
better now!

Paulos

I eat a lot of bananas, thanks barb and thank you VERY much pho... I'm real upset right now due to a dvd drive not working right and I couldn't get the video driver working and it's all so confusing I can't take much more.

BUTTERFLY-7

Paulos Buddy: I know exactly how you feel
we want everything to go away, but remember is a process
we didn't became Addicts over night, and we sure ain't going to
get Heal over night, Be easy on your self take a deep breath,
take a little walk if you can, if you cant it's alright, you know what it is
we just came from having a dysfunctional addict life, so is going to
feel kind of uncomfortable, because our thinking& emotions was disturb with
so much Alcohol and now you are under medication of course its going to take a toll on you Do Baby steps if you must but don't Quit I need you cause through your War Stories I stay Clean another day OK
I'll Be:praying for you and yes you are going to become that person
you once was just give it time and do your part we are here at S.R.

Paulos

Thank you butterfly, for I've been suffering with my meds... new dosage of lamictal and lowered of Risperdal... day 21 without booze, hasn't been easy.

BUTTERFLY-7

I know Buddy: you got to give your Body, and mind, to get use
to the effects, and then for your system to get use to the meads
I know it sucks. soon I'll be seen my psychiatry on may 28, so
I could be evaluated, and star my treatment and I'm just
Hoping, and Praying, that they keep me on Depakote 250, mm lg.
cause the last psychiatry that saw me on 2004,
had prescribe me Depakote,but I left the treatment,and Relapse at the ending of 2004 all the way to my sobriety day which is 1-9-008,
so I had to wait all this time 3 months and counting to get a low

cost clinic and be buck for a schedule,they where going to leave me
for june But thank God that last week my regular Doct
mail me a letter referral to see the psychiatry at the ending of May
so you see Paulos not everything is going to come our way but in do
time if you stick with the plan you will reap it's reward
God Bless you Paulos Buddy I'll be :praying for you Don't quit on me

Paulos

I dont understand all you said butterfly about your clinic/etc but I appreciate your words.

TiredMama

I couldn't agree more with Teach. Everyday is a new day! How are you doing friend?

BUTTERFLY-7

what I meant was that soon I'll be seen my psychiatry

on 5-28-008 for a evaluation so I could be treated as well
from my mental disorder,(Bipolar) and that I thank God cause when I was Diagnose in 2004 with the syndrome of Bipolar

the Medication I was Giving Depakote 250 mlg
and it didn't give me after affects

that I could imagion how you feel with so much medication in your system take it easy Buddy I'll be:praying for you