Nitelite

I just got triggered at work; and the first thing that came to mind was taking a cab, going home and hurting myself.
started to think in all kinds of different directions.

My therapist is going on vacation for the first time in 2 years. I can't do that to him. (a time when co-dependency works for good, and not for evil!!)

I can't find a hospital around here that doesn't advertise ECT in big bold letters, and even if I could find one, If I were strong enough to walk in for a 72-hour hold, I am probably strong enough not to go in at all.

My son who is recovering from addiction is with me and I can't go to a hospital or hurt myself while he is around.

I am out of sick days.

Maybe if I keep writing, this will begin to sort itself out. I do see my T later today. But then what? This sounds so freaking stupid, but I don;t want to upset him/**** him off--you know. I have been doing so much better, and now: WHAMMO.

any words at all would be appreciated.

best

I would be upset if I was the T if...
If you are in need of talking but don't.
Therapist don't take the job for the money, they do so because they want and like helping people.
I would share what is bothering you and I am sure that the T will be able to share some insight with you. Prayer is always a good idea as well.

pedagogue

Exactly.

As someone on the other side of the couch, I try and encourage the expression of feelings, frustrations, etc....because no good comes from holding stuff like that in.


Ditto.

-p