They win
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They win
why is it that things never go right
why does everything have to be a fight
no matter how hard u try u never forget
to me they always be a threat
those who say we have won
how can that be, when I was outdone
I didn't even think it was wrong
that's just sick, god I just don't belong
It may have stopped, but it still lives within
I feel them under my skin
the memories the pain I live thru each day
I just wish it would all just go away.
The past is now controlling my present
adds to my life, all this torment.
will it ever ease and stop
Or do I have to fall and drop.
I've crashed and burned
all those years have now returned
I can't relive 27 years like this
no longer do I want to exist.
I hand my cards ins
and say goodnite u win.
why does everything have to be a fight
no matter how hard u try u never forget
to me they always be a threat
those who say we have won
how can that be, when I was outdone
I didn't even think it was wrong
that's just sick, god I just don't belong
It may have stopped, but it still lives within
I feel them under my skin
the memories the pain I live thru each day
I just wish it would all just go away.
The past is now controlling my present
adds to my life, all this torment.
will it ever ease and stop
Or do I have to fall and drop.
I've crashed and burned
all those years have now returned
I can't relive 27 years like this
no longer do I want to exist.
I hand my cards ins
and say goodnite u win.
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I'm tierd of fighting..I want so much to just curl up and di*. to disappear from the world. I've cut myself and now its bleeding real bad, I done something stupid and put vinegar on it i've never done that before. I'm messing up. I just want to be held ad it won't happen, it won't ever happen. Sorry. sorry for everything, sorry.
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Join Date: May 2007
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Gee Sh*t what have I missed?
Jody, have you gone to hospital?, or are you ok. Listen to those on SR who have been where you are and are now doing ok,
There are lots of people here who care, please let us know.
hugz
L
xx
Jody, have you gone to hospital?, or are you ok. Listen to those on SR who have been where you are and are now doing ok,
There are lots of people here who care, please let us know.
hugz
L
xx
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I'm waiting for it to calm down, it should stop bleeding soon, it has to. i'm sorry I tried not to and tried writing instead but it didn't help. I'm sorry.
CW, I can't reply as ur mail box was full.
CW, I can't reply as ur mail box was full.
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Hey Lost,
Inbox now empty!!!, Glad you are OK, You need to keep posting and talking. Loads of people here care deeply about you and hate to see you hurting emotionally, but please don't hurt yourself physically too, you have had more that your fair share of pain in life.
Please keep an eye on the bleeding, and if it doesnt calm down 999 or 911 get help.
sending you healing and loving hugs big time
xxx
Inbox now empty!!!, Glad you are OK, You need to keep posting and talking. Loads of people here care deeply about you and hate to see you hurting emotionally, but please don't hurt yourself physically too, you have had more that your fair share of pain in life.
Please keep an eye on the bleeding, and if it doesnt calm down 999 or 911 get help.
sending you healing and loving hugs big time
xxx
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Little Child,
if this is the same cut, it's been going for an hour now...even an grizzled old 'no hospital' campaigner like me is starting to think maybe a casulty trip and a bandage might'nt be a bad idea...
take care
D
if this is the same cut, it's been going for an hour now...even an grizzled old 'no hospital' campaigner like me is starting to think maybe a casulty trip and a bandage might'nt be a bad idea...
take care
D
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I cut to realise the pain,
the pain that hides deep within.
I feel them on me, they crawling on my skin
I reach for the blade and start to cut again.
Realise the poison from inside
the dirty feelings won't subside.
the blood is the tears
that hides all my fears.
The feelings were too intense.
no more can I keep up the pretense.
I reach for the blade, hold it to my wrist
I cut to deep I can't resist.
The blood drips, as the light fades
all that shines are my blades
I close my eyes and say goodnite
I promise you I tried to fight
I can't stop crying, I'm losing it aren't I. Sorry.
the pain that hides deep within.
I feel them on me, they crawling on my skin
I reach for the blade and start to cut again.
Realise the poison from inside
the dirty feelings won't subside.
the blood is the tears
that hides all my fears.
The feelings were too intense.
no more can I keep up the pretense.
I reach for the blade, hold it to my wrist
I cut to deep I can't resist.
The blood drips, as the light fades
all that shines are my blades
I close my eyes and say goodnite
I promise you I tried to fight
I can't stop crying, I'm losing it aren't I. Sorry.
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