Im all over the place...
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Im all over the place...
I have been void of emotion for so long it's kind of all over the place right now. I had an exam tonight in algebra. I freaked when the paper was handed to me. I went brain dead. I was very stressed out when I was done and immediately thought of a drink. I called someone...the stress is over and I'm still sober. I've had to deal with a boyfriend that is constantly drunk. And now I am having a bit of a crush on someone in the program. It's overwhelming and I would like that part to go away. I don't need to be developing feelings for people. Way too complicated. How do I stop that? What's with all these damn new feelings? My compassion for living things is also making my life hell. How can I be a chicken farmer if I'm crying over every one of them?
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I'm sorry you're hurting, Jennifer.
Sometimes, I think the best thing we can do is chalk it up as a bad day and remember that tomorrow affords us a new start. You're sober and that in itself speaks to your resolve. Take care.
Sometimes, I think the best thing we can do is chalk it up as a bad day and remember that tomorrow affords us a new start. You're sober and that in itself speaks to your resolve. Take care.
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I hope tomorrow will be a little more settled, Jen.
I wouldn't get into something that promises to be emotionally complicated right now.
You can even urge surf that crush
I hate exams too, Same thing always happened to me.
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I wouldn't get into something that promises to be emotionally complicated right now.
You can even urge surf that crush
I hate exams too, Same thing always happened to me.
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I think urge surfing the crush is a good idea. I am NOT getting involved into anything like that right now. I'm aware of where it came from and it's all the wrong reasons. I'm going to talk this out a minute. This person has been eyeballing me for some time now. Being I'm getting no attention at home, and all of a sudden...someone is bothering with me, and it feels good. The faster I burn through this sick crush, the faster it will be over. As far as the chickens...I am no longer using them for meat. I can't do it anymore. I can take the roosters to auction and let the old hens live out their lives here. Algebra is algebra. I have to stop trying to be perfect and accept that I am not a super genius. I know I got a few questions right. I should pass, even though it's not the grade I probably wanted. There. No drink wanted. Not tonight. This can be done.
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Ugh Algebra! And matters of the heart to boot! Both tricky answers.
You already know that it's best to deal with your current relationship before further complicating yourself with a new one....... or else you'll end with two problems instead of just one. Not quite algebra.
I'm sorry that you are unhappy with you bf. When a woman isn't treated right by her partner other people start looking better and better...... that eye starts to wander.
I say before you start thinking about someone new you give yourself the best chance for happiness in that by not being encumbered by the past.
You already know that it's best to deal with your current relationship before further complicating yourself with a new one....... or else you'll end with two problems instead of just one. Not quite algebra.
I'm sorry that you are unhappy with you bf. When a woman isn't treated right by her partner other people start looking better and better...... that eye starts to wander.
I say before you start thinking about someone new you give yourself the best chance for happiness in that by not being encumbered by the past.
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