inching toward relapse
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Wow, these are great responses. I've been up all night. Just can't sleep these days. Anyway, I am seeing a therapist (for those who asked) but I haven't told her about this. Nor have I told my Psych about my inability to remember my meds half the time. I need them for bipolar. I hear you about helping others and I'm going to have to bite the bullet and call even though every cell in my body is screaming against it because I just want to be alone alone alone all the time--well not totally alone; I have a super sweet pitbull who is, I have to admit, my best friend at this point. Anyway, I'm taking your suggestions to heart. I'm grateful there are compassionate people on this site who understand and take the time too share what they've learned.
Zorah
Zorah
Depending on the meds you're on it's extremely important that you take them regularly. They have to build up in the blood stream to be fully functional. I'm not here to lecture you, I just know from experience that it has to be a priority if you want to maintain sobriety and be able to live happy joyous and free. At least if your mental illness and your alcoholism are anything like mine.
Aside from that...can you take your dog for a walk or out to the park or something? Anything to get you around people. From there I would hit as many meetings as I could. It's usually the times I want to go the least that I need it the most. I can very easily get comfortable being alone, like you're saying, but that's when I really have to push myself...even if I miss half the meeting because it's so hard to get myself out the door. One thing that helps me when I get into that spot is to remember that I don't have to do anything when I get to the meeting. I just have to get my butt in the chair and keep it there for an hour. Sometimes I'll bring scratch paper to doodle or write or something if I'm feeling squirly. It's the same with calling people too. You don't have to actually do anything. People in AA get it. You can just call someone and ask how they are...or tell them you feel close to relapse and just need to not be alone. I used to have a pact with a friend of mine...we agreed that just dialing the number was enough...we didn't have to talk as long as we'd breathe heavy every now and then and let the person know we were still there. :P
Sorry this is so long...you just really reminded me of me here.
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