You're making great progress BBB :)

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Great stuff, those days are adding up very nicely

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Huge update!

Work have finally contacted me and agreed to a phased return which I am going in tomorrow to discuss!

It was weird as they rang whilst I was seeing my mental health practitioner, so I spoke to them whilst she was there! I may not have answered otherwise!

I'm very nervous about seeing everyone tomorrow and having to have this meeting with my manager, but this is normal anxiety. This is a huge step for me.

I am going to take very good care of myself today and tonight, making sure I am in the best possible place mentally that I can be for tomorrow.

Wish me luck friends.
B

On my way to work. Wish me luck!

Day 49.

Wooooooooo get in B :c014: good luck bud

First day in the bag.

4 hours was enough as I'm mentally exhausted now. The meeting with my boss went fine but it's taken it out of me.

Time to relax ahead of round 2 tomorrow!

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Great work.

Day 50.

Second day back at work went well again. Got some work done and was chatting with my colleagues :)

Some slight thoughts of drinking to 'reward' myself, but I overcame it easily with some choice words directed at my AV.

Very proud of myself :)

Congrats on 50 days B thats awesome

Day 51 over.
I am really liking sober life right now. Coming up on 2 months and I never ever want to look back. I fully believe that I can do this. In fact, I can thrive. I'm missing out on nothing. :)

I'm so happy for you!!!!

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Triple B! Sooo happy for you:)

Awesome BBB :)

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Really happy for you B

Closing out day 54 here.

Very busy at my end with being back at work. My mother in law has also just had an operation so I am attempting to look after her (she's not very mobile at the moment!)

I am doing well though. I have not had any significant urges to speak of. One thing I have noticed is the ability to recognise my AV. I have been, almost subconsciously, responding to it in a highly stern manner and telling it where to shove itself, which so far is stopping dead the train of thought that may in the past have lead me to drinking. I mainly notice it in adverts / films, and at certain times of the day. (Late afternoon in particular). It is comforting to know that it cannot sneak up on me as easily as it has done in the past. I've come such a long way I'm the past 2 months, I refuse to go back, ever. It just cannot be a part of my life anymore, and I am okay with that. Not happy, but accepting.

I still think everyday about my behaviour when I was drinking and that is helping solidify this determination. I will have to let it go at some point, but I do forgive myself wholly. As with all things, the wounds will take time to heal. I certainly did not do anything to hurt anyone else more than I hurt myself. Beginning the process of making amends with myself has been a big help this time. I have realised that I cannot control what others think of me, nor should I ever want to, but being very patient with myself is key in my recovery.

I am looking forward to saying I have been sober for two months soon. I will feel so proud, and I will, for that day, allow myself to enjoy the moment of achievement.

Keep on truckin' :)

Congrats BBB, you're doing great! I'm a few days behind you and I draw a lot of inspiration from your posts. :)

Thank you for your kind words upward :)

Day 55 over and done with.

Had a really positive day at work today. I've found and arranged to move into a new job within the same company, something I think I will enjoy a lot more than my role now. I guess this is one of the benefits of working for such a large company, the downside however being that I initiated this request over a year ago and only now is it coming to fruition. A good step forward nonetheless.

Winding down now watching the football. Tomorrow is a day off for me so I'm looking forward to having a lie in. I do love that feeling of waking up sober and fresh.

So glad to see that things are working out for you, BBB.